Wednesday, October 31, 2007
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
3:00 PM
she writes
Monday, October 29, 2007
a good news to share!(as contributed by rachel and gary.)
8th november is a public holiday!
which means...
clubbing on 7 november is definitely on!
because most people will be able to make it!
yay yay yay!
:]
so to rachel, joanne, joanna, levonne and MLBF-
"you all are MINE on 7 november night! no excuses!"
to joanne and joanna-
"don't forgot you both already "signed up" with me!"
to rachel-
"please help me tell ah chua he's mine on 7 november night as well! haha! :X"
i can't wait!
:]
"get well soon my dear!
loves!"
Couldn't Ask For More.
9:27 PM
she writes
Saturday, October 27, 2007
halloween party at zouk tonight.plus joanna's birthday clubbing trip at st james.
but i'm stuck at home yet again.
:[
mugging for exams (supposingly).
*rrrraaawwwrrr*
to make up for all these "losses" that i've been experiencing.
i'm going clubbing on 7 november;
my last day of exams.
it's a wednesday night.
which means ladies night for most clubs.
anyone interested?
yesh;
i'm addicted to clubbing.
LOOK!
my ah beng boyfriend!
OMG!
well.
when your plans to change your image with a new hair colour just doesn't turn out the way you want it to be.
LOL!
:X
Pictures Of You.
8:55 PM
she writes
Thursday, October 25, 2007
i have sweet friends! :]sweet friend number one: rachel aka chel chel
she sms-ed me outta a sudden saying we haven met up for years.
she wants to ask me out but yet wants me to concentrate on my exams.
so she can only make plans to meet up after exams.
it's exaggerating to say we haven met up for years;
cause i've only missed/been missing from the outings which happened/happening these 2 weeks.
but it shows that she miss me right?!
hahahaha!
sweet friend number two: joanne aka ah neo
she'll always msg me on msn asking me how's my revision coming along.
not only that.
despite being all tired from school and having assignments due the next day;
she accompanied me to MLBF's event the other day when she knew that i was going alone.
"thanks a lot my twosome! :]"
sweet friend number three: waifong aka the mushroom
she's never gets irritated by my constant bugging.
whether is it endless accounting questions or never-ending problems.
she'll always patiently listen to me and try her best to help me out.
"thanks a lot mushroom! :]"
sweet friend number four: ben aka gong gong aka comic boy aka ... ...
he's always there to listen to my whines and complains.
and never fails to cheer me up.
on top of that.
he's always trying his very best to explain the things that i don't understand as detailed as he can.
"thanks a lot gong gong! :]"
totally love them to bits!
how can i not?
Doesn't Seems So Bad.
6:33 AM
she writes
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
"only you will believe that the grass will one day bloom into beautiful flower.only you are willing to protect the smile.
it really means a lot to me.
thanks!"
i'm the little wifey!
:]
Loved. Always.
1:41 PM
she writes
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
feel like going and get myself all drenched;i wanna wash away the tears.
feel like going star-gazing;
i wanna feel closer to my darling little angels.
feel like blowing bubbles;
i wanna have all the unhappiness blown away.
"tell me.
you're not like what the others say about you.
you love me right?
or is this just what i choose to believe?
though it's just three simple words.
and i prolly said it a million times.
but i still wanna let you know;
i love you.
i really do"
Not What You See On The Outside.
3:26 PM
she writes
Saturday, October 20, 2007
i can't believe it!why do i have to be stuck at home mugging for exams when my friends are out there clubbing?!
even MLBF went!
:\
oh well.
i guess there are times where you gotta pretend to be sensible.
set your priorities right.
and make sacrifices.
*roll eyes*
but i'm seriously sacrificing too much!
clubbing trip today!
vincent's birthday bbq tomorrow!
as well as joanna's birthday celebration - dinner plus clubbing next weekend!
)):
missing 2 clubbing trips consecutively is really far too much!
i still can't believe it!
ladies night at DXO;
free entry and free drinks all night for ladies!
and yet i'm sitting here typing instead of dancing the night away!
how can i let something like that happen?!
*whines*
i don't care!
i'm so gonna make it up when exams are over!
clubbing trip every weekend!
fornightly at the least!
so interested parties please "sign up" with me now!
haha!
some things worth mentioning which makes me feels a little better.
1) my dad finally engaged someone to repair the air con in my room!
so no more hot air blowing out from it!
and i can finally operate it using the remote controller!
2) my room is a lot cleaner now!
mummy made me clean it up when i reached home at 1 plus am yesterday.
just because the air con repair-men were coming.
:\
but otherwise my room will never have a chance to look and feel so clean.
it's only on the surface actually.
cause "landslide" will occur if you open up the cupboards.
:X
opps!
3) i bought a new phone!
s500i!
:))
joanne bought the white.
and i bought the black.
so if rachel buys the gold;
then threesome will be carrying the same model of phone in one complete set!
hahahaha!
but i still havent got my memory card yet.
can't wait to get one!
cause the phone feels especially empty without one.
:\
but i already ordered one from tingsin.
it's like 2GB at 30 plus bucks only!
super cheap deal right?!
good thing i suddenly remembered that tingsin is dealing with sales of psp and accessories.
"ah neo! twice the space of yours but almost half the price you paid! you must be feeling super gek if you were to read this!"
:X
hahahahaha!
well.
i guess what i can do to reduce the "unbalance-ness" in me now is to...
enjoy the cold air ventilating in my clean room while i explore my new phone.
:\
call it self-consolation.
but i hope it works.
i wanna go clubbing too!
The Precious Moments.
5:44 PM
she writes
my model boyfriend!
2:21 AM
she writes
Thursday, October 18, 2007
5:56 AM
she writes
Monday, October 15, 2007
13 october 2007went to heler 21st birthday celebration at carribean.
the condo's like super nice!
how i wish i own a penthouse there!
hahaha!
okay.
shant digress.
back to the topic.
he booked a fuction room there.
wasn't very happening when we arrived.
so we decided to perk things up a bit by playing a little game with him.
he was supposed to down 21 rather small cups of beer in 2 mins and 10 secs.
a lot of his family members came to his resuce.
and i thought they kinda spoilt the fun.
:\
but in the end he still lost and had to do a forfeit.
which is...
dressing up as bunny superman!
wahahahahahahaha!
boxer - one of our present for him!
props - provided by his relatives!
bunny teeth - requested by his aunt!
hahahahahaha!
at least he was game enough to do it.
so unlike his super old-fashioned uncle who was definitely very unhappy with us and our game.
he raised his voice at MLBF.
:\
whatever!
left carribean at around 11 plus.
then headed to st james power house.
can somebody please remind me that my exams are coming!
oppps!
hahahaha!
but it have been ages since i went clubbing!
and i had so so so much fun!
:))
definitely didn't regret going.
at least for now.
i don't know if i can say the same when results are out.
:\
the music there kinda suck.
and the drinks definitely didn't get me high.
but i still danced like nobody's business.
even went up onto the platform to dance.
alone!
hahaha!
but rachel, joanne and joanna came up to join me soon after!
:))
all four of us were like super high from the dancing!
we were even awarded the 'long lasting award' by MLBF!
hahaha!
cause we danced on the platform for super long!
we proceeded from the lowest platform all the way to the highest!
hahahaha!
i seriously wonder how we look like from down there.
but who cares?!
anyway.
if you think your eyes are playing trick on you.
you're wrong!
it's definitely joanne's name that you're seeing.
joanne NEO if you wanna be sure.
the one who's always so against going clubbing.
yet she went to st james power house with us!
and was definitely happily dancing away!
and crazily climbed onto the platform and danced the night away with us!
yay!
all the members of the threesome party are officially clubbers now!
and you're definitely see 'buy three get one free' going clubbing together very often!
left at around 3am.
the four of us totally didn't wanna leave cause we haven't got enough of the dancing!
haha!
but the guys weren't having fun.
and they were super tired of protecting us already;
they had to constantly shield us from the tikos.
cause there were too many desperate guys around!
:\
but the guys should seriously be credited.
cause they really protected us well.
this is the very first time i went clubbing without being touched!
so to MLBF, gary, ah chua and xianlong-
"thanks a lot! :))"
but i think i needa say a super big thank you especially to gary.
cause he saved my ass from being grabbed by this unknown guy.
and he almost beat the guy up because of that.
:\
so to gary-
"thanks a million bah geh! i'm seriously super touched! :))"
must admit i seriously let my guard down when i was dancing near the guy who tried to grab my ass.
but you can't blame me for being so careless.
cause the guy was dancing with his girlfriend!
who will ever thought a guy will be happily dancing away with his girlfriend in one hand and trying to grab another girl's ass with another?!
i feel sick just picturing such a sight!
:\
but i definitely learnt my lesson!
went to bukit timah to have our "breakfast" before heading home.
teochew porridge.
yummy!
some pictures taken for the day-
- my half malay friend's chinese girlfriend in malay baju kurong and tudong (don't know if i spelt it correctly)! confusing isn't it?! hahahaha!
- my half malay friend!
- the sweet couple all dressed up for hari raya!
- joanna the banana!
- rachel looks damn funny!
- i thought the postion that joanna is in is prettay hilarious! haha!
- joanne said she likes this picture. so i'm posting it. :))
- border of the picture contributed by the toilet of st james!
- joanne! the last official clubber of threesome party!
- the lucky joanna!
- rachel!
-they look drunk!
- xianlong! he just stood there like a stone most of the time!
- the couple's pout! my favourite move when i can't get something! hahaha!
- when threesome party meets banana equals buy three get one free!
"i had so much so much so much fun!
we should do this more often!
love you guys to bits!"
Listen To The Heart.
2:59 PM
she writes
Sunday, October 14, 2007
"in you i don't seems to be able to find a trace of love for me.when you're with me i can never seems to find the same kinda happiness that you display when you're with your friends.
am i trying too hard?
am i being too naive?
am i deceiving myself?
when will you ever come after me when i leave you?
when will you come back to me for real?
can you see that i'm helpless?
i don't know what to do anymore.
can you feel that i'm hurt?
i don't wanna cry anymore.
i ask myself over and over again;
why am i doing this?
but there's only one answer that keeps coming back to me;
i love you.
what about you?
ai wo hao ma?
tell me.
what more can i do?"
Nobody's Somebody.
3:26 PM
she writes
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
MLBF is back from japan!:))
he had so much so much fun that he just couldn't stop talking about his trip.
haha!
he even mentioned that he didn't feel like coming back.
which actually made me prettay upset.
cause it makes me feel that he don't miss me at all.
:\
super sensitive i know.
but that's me.
oh oh!
look at what he bought for me!
tada!
a music box!
:))
it may look like a simple music box.
but he actually "made" it himself;
he chose the tune and did the design!
it's prettay obvious that the duck actually represents him.
so i'm prettay much not left with a choice but to be represented by the pig.
:\
but i still think it's super sweet!
and i love it!
:))
"thanks baby!"
i was supposed to get another box of chocolates initially.
but MLBF gave it to mummy instead.
cause he forgot to get anything for her.
:\
i suggested that he buy a few sushi for her and said he brought it back from japan.
hahahahahahaha!
super evil i know!
but at least it would have help me retain my box of chocolates!
haha!
headed out together with MLBF today.
wasn't even one-quarter into the day when some stuff happened.
i just didn't think that it was necessary to shout at me in front of so many people over a small thing like that.
it was a good thing he was back to normal after lunch.
guess it was the "hungry-ness" which made him so pissed and harsh.
well.
but at least the rest of the day went on fine.
we shopped a little;
he bought a top while i bought a pair of shoes and earrings.
then we watched 'resident evil: the extinction'.
and went for a little food spree at taka's basement before we headed home.
:))
"there are times when i really feel like giving up.
there are times when i don't understand why no matter what i do i just can't seems to be able to please you.
there are times when i start questioning myself why are you the one i give my heart to when there are so many other guys out there.
there are times when i really couldn't help but agree that i'll be so much happier with someone who loves me more than i love him.
but no matter what happen.
i'm gonna make myself get all these thoughts outta my head.
cause i believe if i try hard enough;
one day my love for you will definitely bring back the love you once had for me.
hopefully."
served a wedding dinner at shang yesterday.
the bride's like super prettay!
and i think she's prolly gonna be the luckiest woman on earth!
her husband's like so super duper sweet!
so green with envy.
oh yah.
on a super random note.
i heard one of the 'wulu' song that kenneth sang at kbox being played as the background music during the wedding dinner yesterday.
so i guess it's actually not so 'wulu' afterall.
hahahhahahaha!
:X
some random stuff i wanna add-
1) i feel like going to cafe del mar to work as a waitress!
2) my room seriously needs a revamp!
3) i'm going to taiwan in december!
4) i had no choice but to turn down another of my modelling assignment.
5) i have yet to finish my bc assignment which is due this friday!
6) i haven't start preparing for my exams!
7) i need to be back on track with my dieting plans!
The Song In My Heart.
2:59 AM
she writes
Thursday, October 04, 2007
have been working every other day when i have no lessons.and today's finally my well deserved "off day"!
:))
slept till like 12 plus before i dragged myself outta bed.
finally managed to compensate for the past 2 nights which i only got 4 to 5 hours of sleep.
headed for jantzen at westmall for my long due haircut.
turned out alright.
visually not much difference.
as usual.
:\
but it looks a lot shorter now!
obviously my effort of reminding the hair stylist that i do not wanna alter my hair length had went to waste.
:\
but at the least my hair feels much thinner and lighter now.
:))
mentioned to the hair stylist that i actually have the intention of dying my hair purple.
and he suggested that i dye my hair black and do purple highlights.
he added that somehow if i happen to drop the idea of "purpling" my hair;
he can actually do some special highlight effects for me which is suitable for long hair.
something like highlighting only the front portion of my hair and leaving the back untouched.
sounds prettay interesting!
now i'm spoilt for choice!
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haha!
splurge on 2 rings today!
:\
it's considered a splurge for me because i'm not exactly the very accessory kinda person.
bought this semi-liquid eyeliner from faceshop last week.
and till now i still have absolutely no idea on how i should apply!
tried applying a few times;
but instead of flattering my eyes,
it ended up more like a disaster!
:\
now i'm actually searching for some videos or articles online to learn the right way of doing it.
what a loser!
MLBF dropped me a sms this morning!
:))
Stay Right Here With Me.
12:09 PM
she writes
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
i've been;a fool.
a fool.
a fool.
all these while.
in the end;
it's me who got so so hurt.
Not Another Word; It Hurts.
12:50 PM
she writes
my life's fucked up!
my life's fucked up!
my life's fucked up!
my life's fucked up!
my life's fucked up!
i seriously had enough!
every decision i make just seems to be wrong!
everything i do just can't seems to satisfy everyone!
"i really didn't mean to hurt you.
especially not you.
i really don't wanna see you upset.
especially not you.
i really don't wanna lose you.
especially not you.
tell me.
what do i do now?"
Do You Ever Cry Yourself To Sleep?
10:25 AM
she writes
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
worked as an organiser for GE event at shang today.seriously speaking.
organiser is just a nicer word.
i'm just the registration girl actually.
not going into much details about what happened during the event.
cause nothing much to mention anyway.
but there's a few bloody bitch(es) which irritated me a lot throughout the day!
*rrrraaaaawwwrrr*
went to the airport to send MLBF off after knocking off.
he's going to japan!
it's already bad enough that he's not bringing me along.
even worst that i have to be here mugging for exams when he's out there having fun!
*sulks*
initially planned to meet MLBF for dinner together then prolly head to the airport together.
but in the end he said his dad's taking them out for dinner together.
and after which he has to get home to do a final packing of his luggage.
so there go my plans.
:\
and i ended up travelling alone from orchard to changi.
haven been to the airport for quite some time;
was feeling prettay lost when i got there.
MLBF didn't even bother to come meet me up.
instead i was supposed to go around searching for his family and him when they were walking around unsure of where they were and where they were heading.
eventually they decided on swensens and i was supposed to meet them there.
but when i walked around the whole terminal 1 and looked at all the directory i just can't seems to locate any swensens outlet!
was seriously so close to tears already.
:((
somehow managed to meet up with them.
found out that swensens is located at terminal 2 instead of 1.
so we headed over to terminal 2.
had a prettay rush dinner.
then hurried back to terminal 1 cause MLBF's aunt was like calling him non-stop on his mobile.
MLBF started doing all the checking-in and all once we got back to terminal 1.
after being busy with the checking-in he crowded around with the rest of his family and talked.
so all i could do was just to stand around.
then outta a sudden his grandma announced that they gotta go already.
and all he did was say bye and went off.
>.<
he should have took the initiative to create an opportunity to spend a little time alone with me?!
or even if he couldn't give me a hug or a kiss in front of his family he should have at least held my hand or something?!
headed towards the skytrain station with tears welling up in my eyes.
i know it's prettay silly.
cause he's only going away on a holiday for a week.
and not migrating or going there to study for years or something.
but i just couldn't help it.
so i decided to turn back and head to the viewing gallery to watch his plane take off.
managed to coincidentally see him walking around in the departure hall from the viewing gallery.
so i called him up and asked him to return to the same place so as to look at him for a while more.
but i waited and waited and he just didn't appear.
called him up and but no one answered.
messaged him and but didn't get any reply.
and when i eventually managed to reach him he said he didn't know where i was standing and i could hear his cousin telling him in the background that they have to board the plane already.
i got really pissed and upset and hang up the phone on him.
with myself all emotional and tired and also the occurance of so many "incidents";
i simply couldn't take it anymore.
i cried.
and messaged him nasty stuff.
seriously regret saying whatever i did.
but i guess it happens;
especially when you contained your "grievances" inside for too long.
well.
what can i say?
i knew all along that it's gonna be tough to love someone who doesn't love you just as much.
but i chose it anyway.
but seriously speaking.
despite all the complainings.
i can truthfully say;
no regrets!
cause i know i love him so much.
to MLBF-
"i'm really sorry for whatever i said. i really didn't mean it. guess i was really overwhelmed by emotions, unhappiness and tiredness. forgive me alright? i'm actually missing you so much already. hope u'll have fun! loves."
Cry On My Shoulder.
2:59 PM
she writes
