Monday, June 25, 2007
today marks the official end of my working life in shang.
as well as some other things which i've to put an end to together with my last day.
despite the constant complaining of how that place really sucks.
i know i'm still definitely gonna miss that place.
i mean like how many of you actually have bosses who goes around shouting "Go Spartans! Hoo Haa!" and disconnects the wire of ya keyboard from the CPU everytime they walk out of the office?!
and how often do you get colleagues who dances to 'Sexy Back' half way through her work and suggests a nude dance party in the office?!
it makes me laugh just recalling these moments. haha! :))
and so now i'm supposed to be anticipating the start of my uni life.
but truthfully speaking, i have mixed feelings about this.
on one hand i'm like so totally excited about it.
although i know this kinda excitement is prolly due to the fact that the word 'school' has become such a stranger to me.
and it prolly wouldn't be long before i start counting the number of days left to holidays.
but still, i'm really looking forward to a whole new environment and the new friends i'm gonna make.
but on the other i'm actually kinda worried.
what if the people i meet there are not like any of those people i've met?
and i think i fail to mention that the system in SIM of i should say RMIT doesn't have any tutorial classes.
it's lectures all the way.
and the lectures are like 3 hours long!
back in those days where econs lectures were like one and a half hours long, i already have problems keeping myself awake and focus.
what's gonna happen now when lectures are like three hours long and there are no tutorials to help enhance my understanding?!
will i be able to adapt to such a studying environment?!
i start to dread even more every time i think about the money that i'm sacrificing attending all those lectures.
although i'm only earning like $6.50 an hour which is like pathetically low.
but still, each time i attend a lecture, i'm actually losing $19.50.
not including the money which i have to spend on my lunch and dinner which will totally not be neccessary when i'm working cos my meals are all provided.
i know that i being calculative here.
but you'll understand why i'm behaving this way when you only get $450 a month which i have to use to cover my meals, transport, expenses, phone bill, laptop payment and all the miscellaneous.
i'm not trying to blame my parents for giving me so little pocket money or not being able to help me out with my bills and payment.
i mean it's really hard on them having to fork out 5K plus every 6 months for my school fees.
i'm just trying to emphasize how much more i rather be working than studying.
but like my mum keep telling me.
all these money that i'm sacrificing now is for the thousands of dollars i'll be earning in the later years.
and i guess i have to admit what she said is right.
so...
no matter how tough it's gonna be.
i'm gonna put in my best shot and make the best out of it.
i'm not gonna create another regret in my life.
or disappoint myself again like how i already did twice in the past 3 years.
for the thousands of dollars i'll be earning!
I MUST SURVIVE!
I'M GONNA SURVIVE!I WILL SURVIVE!Faith. Confidence. Strength.
5:59 PM
she writes
Thursday, June 21, 2007
will someone hug me tight.
and tell me everything's gonna be alright?
cos i can no longer find the strength to do that.
Blank.
12:23 PM
she writes
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
is this the end?
i hear myself screaming no.
Losing It All.
8:12 PM
she writes
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
i just read my friend's blog!
her bf is like so damn sweet la!
i was like so close to tears!
"WEI! WHEN WILL YOU BE HALF AS SWEET?! SHIT YOU! HAHA! :X"this is what happens when i glow green with envy!
hahahahahaha!
Would You Be There?
5:32 PM
she writes
Friday, June 01, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! GOSH! i'm 19! that's like SO SUPER OLD! haha!
wanted to upload some photos that i took earlier today.
or i should say yesterday.
but there seems to be something wrong with blogger.
it keeps having error.
irritated!
NVM!
shall upload all the pics as well as make my "thank you speech" althogether some time.
hopefully soon.
cause work's gonna be like really hectic for me for the next few days due to IISS.
even have to go back to work at 11pm tomorrow.
and if everything go smoothly with the rooms, i'll be staying in shang for the next 3 to 5 days.
so look out for the pictures and thank you speech!
and not forgetting...
"
HAPPY 17th MONTH MY BOY!lovelove!"
Blessed.
3:01 PM
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