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Friday, December 30, 2005

i'm so freaking upset. :(
i tried so hard to stop myself from crying. i really did.
but i still failed.
why am so weak?!
i seriously hate myself for being so weak! argh!

So Tired Of Tears.

5:15 PM

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

i had a great christmas! :)

24 December 2005 - Saturday (Christmas Eve)
reached home at around 1 plus in the morning from work. i tried to pack my room but I obviously failed. haha. ended up talking on the phone with douglas till like 5 plus in the morning. then I got changed and went out to meet hilman and douglas. and off we went to sentosa. haha. in another words. i didn't get to sleep at all.

met eddy at habourfront interchange at around 8 plus. then we took the bus to palawan beach. and guess who i saw?! i met yonghwee on the bus. haha. he was working. he looks so kuku in the uniform. haha. probably because it looks small on him. haha.

it was so freaking hot when we reached there. so i took the chance and immediately started tanning while the rest went into the water. fell asleep for a while and when i woke up, i swam over to the platform in the middle of the water to look for douglas and hilman. poor eddy couldn't swim so all he could do was to stay on shore and look after our stuff. haha. we saw a crab and a cute little fishy "trapped" in the "holes" of the platform. i tried to get the fishy out, but it keeps swimming back into the "hole". we laid there to tanned and all 3 of us ended up falling asleep, leaving poor eddy alone for who knows how long. haha. evil us.

we swam back to shore to look for eddy. and all 4 of us fell asleep while we tanned. again. haha. can't imagine how tired all 4 of us were. we took turns to bury each other in the sand after we got up. making stupid figures for each other with the sand. although it's really uncomfortable when you're the one getting buried. but it's really fun. haha. and we all look super dumb.

we left sentosa at around 3 plus looking so super burnt and tanned. haha.

went over to granny's place after i left sentosa. it's a family tradition that every year on christmas eve we gather and celebrate christmas together. should say that the celebration this year was a really successful one. cause granny's place was so packed that there were bearly space to walk.

i left early from granny's place to come home to pack up my room. was about to finish when jessica, suxian and wanmei came. we wanted to order some food from pizza hut but they were so busy that they refused to take our orders. :( so we ended up ordering soggy canadian pizza which had tomatoes on it. tasted so awful. it was a good thing my mummy prepared a little of some other food for us. "thanks mummy!"

liling, shih wen and douglas came over at about 11 plus. liling and shih wen left after a while. while the rest of us together with kenny who came a little after 12 went up to the multi storey carpark. i laid on the floor and watched the stars. it feels so good that way. and the stars were really really beautiful. :) kenny brought a bottle of foam from orchard. and douglas and me ended up chasing each other around the carpark spraying at each other. but i think douglas got most of it. haha. jessica, wanmei, suxian and me also got to spent some time sitting together to talk.

25 December 2005 - Sunday (Christmas)
came back home at around 2 plus. wenhao and hilman came over after a while and left after a while too. leaving poor douglas alone with us again. haha. wanmei, kenny and douglas fell asleep after a while. suxian and jessica fell asleep at about 6 plus i guess. and i only got some sleep after jessica and kenny left at 7 plus. the rest of them left at around 12 plus.

met douglas around evening time and we went over to suntec. we ate marche for dinner. then walked around. we went over to the fountain and douglas brought me over to this place called "sky garden" which is this open space garden at the top of one of the tower that i never knew exist in suntec. haha. new discovery. we caught "the cronicles of narnia" at 9:20. it was a 2 hours and 20 minutes show. but i thought that the show was really worth the time. you guys should really go catch it if you have the time.

we took a cab back after the show. reached home at around 12 plus. and mummy wasn't too happy about it. but who cares. opps. haha. i had a great christmas! :)

thanks to everyone who gave me a present - mummy, jessica, sis, suxian, wanmei, aunts, cousin and tepang. as well as those who made this christmas really special for me, especially jessica, suxian, wanmei, liling, shih wen and douglas.

jessica, suxian and wanmei: "so sorry i wasn't a really good host. but hope you all still enjoy this little gathering. thanks a lot for coming over and spending christmas with me. love you girls so much! muacks!"

douglas: "thanks for spending christmas with me. don't hafta feel guilty about not having presents or surprises. cause what really matters to me is your company. i really enjoyed myself! really. :) hugs."

i had a great christmas! really! :)

27 December 2005 - Tuesday
will be going out later to celebrate douglas's birthday which is tomorrow. hopefully he'll like whatever we've planned for him as well as the little surprise and present which i've got for him. :)

"advanced happy birthday to you silly duck! :)"

You'll Never Know How Much I Wish For Time To Stop There And Then.

4:58 AM

she writes

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

i'm feeling so damn uncomfortable. :( everytime i cough, the part below my rib cage hurts. and it always feels as though i'll cough my lungs out anytime. gosh. it's so gross if you were really to imagine. my throat hurts. my head feels heavy. and my gastric problem seems to be coming back too. argh. this is irritating.

jessica just made my day! checked my mails just now and received the pretty flowers she sent. "thanks a lot my dear! you never fails to make me smile. love ya. muacks."

"everytime it happens.
i seems to forget all my worries and hesitations.
and all i could see. is you."

it's so hard to hold back the tears when your heart is already crying. i gotta stop this heartache. :(

You're The Reason I Smile.

5:20 AM

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

Came across somebody's blog and read something that I rather I never read.
My heart sank.

Whenever I pick up my courage and choose to believe. Things will never fail to come along and destroy all the confidence that I've build.
How long will I be able to go on like this?

"Everything seems so real to me.
You.
Your words.
Your touch.
Your smile.

But yet you always seems so far away.
Like a dream I have every night. But will never come true.

And now I'm afraid of waking up from this dream."

Don't Wanna Say Goodbye To You.

7:21 PM

she writes

I'm feeling damn cranky now.

Young girls are maturing too fast nowsadays.
They're disgusting me.

I'm so caught in the middle.
It's so irritating.

Christmas is just around the corner.
I've yet to get anything for anyone.

School's starting soon.
I wish I can have holidays for good.

I haven't done my holiday assignments.
I'm so so damn dead.

I hate mood swings.
They drive me crazy.

This post is so not making sense.

Told you I'm feeling cranky.

Damn.

What More Can I Do.

6:43 PM

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