Tuesday, June 29, 2004
HahaX.. These are some of the pretty pictures taken during the sentosa trip last Friday with Wan Mei.. Su Xian and Jia Min.. I only managed to upload them today b'cause I just got all of them today.. HeeX..
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Monday, June 28, 2004
water picture..
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the sign..
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cuteZ!
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bikini babes!
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blushy cheeks..
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cheese!
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another dustbin photo..
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the dustbin photo..
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models!
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
I watched "Windstruck" today at Westmall.. It's this Korean love comedy that have a storyline like "My Sassy Girl".. But it's have a sader ending then it.. And I cried so much.. My eyes were like kinda red when I came out of the theatre.. So embarassing..HaiX.. I'm still kinda pissed about it.. So I guess to avoid quarrel.. We should just not talk for a while.. But it's kinda unfair to her.. I not talking to her without telling her the reason.. Bet she's clueless about everything.. So I should apologise.. "Sorry!".. But I didn't want things to turn out like the other time.. Cause I'll always lose my temper when I'm pissed off.. And I really can't risk losing her again.. Guess I should learn to forgive and forget fast.. I believe I definitely will.. And then.. I'll talk to her and explain everything.. So for the moment.. All I can say is.. "I'm really sorry!"..
It's Gonna Be A Long Night.. It's Gonna Be Cold Without Your Love..
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
Went to Sentosa with Wan Mei.. Jia Min and Suxian today.. HahaX.. We didn't pay for the entrance fee.. *GrinZ* Cause Wan Mei's mummy was so nice to give us a ride in.. As she was driving a children's bus.. She didn't have to pay like other cars need.. So she dropped us at the place where people should alight from the coaches and we just walked in from the food center to catch a monorail..When we finally reached Palawan beach after a long monorail ride.. We saw Te Pang and his bunch of friends over there.. They went there to celebrate Jun Jie's birthday.. Although I have half expected to see them there.. As in like Si Liang did tell me that they were going to Palawan beach after he asked me which beach I was going to.. Cause there's 7-11 there.. A bigger toilet compared to Siloso beach.. A slide.. Although it was removed.. Due to unknown reasons.. And there was a lot of renovation at Siloso beach.. But I didn't expect them to me like not far from where we left our stuff.. HahaX.. Cause Palawan beach is kinda big too.. But seems that the world is kinda small isn't it..
We had loads of fun there swimming.. And I got kinda tanned again.. HahaX.. We also took lots of pictures.. And special thanx to Te Pang.. Zi Xiang and Yao Rong who helped us took a few group photos.. Although their photography skills were kinda lousy.. =X I should upload a few nice pictures tomorrow after Suxian send me those in her camera and lend me her cable for me to transfer those in my digital camera into the computer cause I left the memory card at home.. And can u believe it.. We even saw a big jelly-fish swimming into the water.. I was kinda worried for the people swimming at that area cause they were kinda exposed to danger.. But the life-guard seems to be helpless about the situation..
We thought of catching the musical fountain.. But as we washed up kinda early.. And didn't know where else to go.. We decided to give the performance a skip and left for dinner.. We ate at the Yoshinoya at Habour Front and walked around before we headed for home.. Oh yah.. And Wan Mei's slipper got stolen when we were bathing in the toilet.. And we met the two most likely suspects when we were on the bus heading for the interchange.. It was these two malay girls who were acting so suspiciously when they saw us again.. But because they weren't wearing it.. There was nothing we could do..
Anyway.. Something happened today.. Not at Sentosa.. But in school.. And it made me feel kinda disappointed.. Pissed off.. And betrayed.. But I guess I shouldn't elaborate further and go into detail.. HaiX..
Once Upon A time We Fell In Love.. And I Thought That I'll Be Your Only One.. But Now I Am On My Own Again..
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Monday, June 21, 2004
Tomorrow is the unofficial start of school.. Marking the end of my short holiday.. As well as my late nights.. My long hours of net and conferencing.. And practically everything that I enjoy doing.. HaiX..But I guess it's high time I pull up my socks if I really wish to get into either Hwa Chong or St Andrew.. So I've decided to only limit myself to maximum two hours of net everyday.. And also cut down on the after school loitering.. After the official start of school.. Really hope that by disciplining myself this way.. I can have the time to complete all my assignments and have more time to do my revisions as well.. *Jia You*
I'll really be missing my holiday life so much.. But I guess I'll just have to encourage myself by looking forward to the real holiday after my O'Level.. Without homework and returning to school.. *YeaH*
But one thing that will not by that time will probably be that whenever I walk past Jurong Point's Jean Yip.. I will not be able to see My Beautiful Stranger anymore.. *SobX* I really miss him a lot.. *SigH*
So Many People.. All Around The World.. Tell Me Where Do I Find.. Someone Like You..
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Sunday, June 20, 2004
I was watching the vcd of one of the old tv series "Peach Girl" this afternoon.. In the show.. There was this guy who sacrificed a lot for this girl he liked a lot without asking for anything in return or any ulterior motives.. Okayx lahx.. His only motive was probably only hoping that the girl could be very very happy.. How sweet can he get..I know you may all tell me that like I said.. It's only a tv series.. All that happened accordingly to a script.. But as you all know.. With such a emotional and sensitive character.. I can't help but feel and think so much.. And I truely believe that in reality.. There must be a lot of people who are like that too.. And I really hoped I can just like one of them..
Anyway.. I went to Jurong Point together with Jessica to have dinner.. Than after walking around the mall for as long as we could.. It was still eight.. So we decided to call Te Pang and Si Liang out for a chat.. Hahax.. But we ended up at McCafe thinking of a topic to talk about.. Doing our own stuff and eating ice cream.. All the way until Si Liang's sister knocked off and came over to look for us.. We chatted for a while and then we all left for home..
As usual.. I walked past Jean Yip several times today and managed to catch a few glimpse of Vincent.. But not his full face.. But whatever it is.. He still looks as cute and as shuai as before.. And everytime I saw him at the counter.. How I wished I had the courage to go over to talk to him.. Or just wave to him and say hello.. But I simply couldn't..
And everytime he disappears from my sight.. I'll just keep asking myself.. "What if he isn't there anymore the next time I passed by.. What if I'll never get to see him ever again.." And I know exactly how'll I'll feel.. Just at the thought of it.. I'm already feeling super upset.. I'm really really afraid of not being able to ever see him again..
You're My World.. My Heart.. My Soul.. If You Ever Leave.. Baby You Will Take Away Everything Good In My Life..
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
The most act cute picture of all..
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Sign of teething..
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This was taken just before he was about to fall asleep..
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And if you notice.. He have a few pimples around his mouth..
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This is Grant.. My baby nephew..
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
I'm so upset.. *SobX* I looked through friendster's gallery all the way till four this morning but I still see no sign of my Beautiful Stranger.. I know this may sounds crazy.. But I really wish to have a way to contact him..Now that I can't find him.. Neither do I have the appetite to eat.. Nor have the mood to do anything else.. My whole mind is just filled with him.. Him.. Him.. Him.. And how in the world to get a way of contacting him.. This is crazy..
But I really miss him a lot..
It's Gonna Be A Long Night.. And I Know I'm Gonna Lose This Fight..
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Went to Jurong Point to watch Best Bet today.. Initially.. Jessica didn't want to watch it there.. But for my sake.. She gave in..I tried to reach there early so that I got some time to look at my Beautiful Stranger.. I didn't reach very early either.. But still I got to see him.. Only his back view.. After which.. I went up to the cinema to wait for Jessica.. And I saw a super long queue at the ticket box.. So I decided to queue as I wait for her to arrive so that I'll have the time to go take a look at my Beautiful Stranger again before the show starts.. But she was late.. When it was going to be my turn.. She still haven't arrive.. So I had to get out of the queue because I didn't have enough money to get both our tickets.. So after I got out of the queue.. Jessica came.. And we had to queue behind a line which was longer than the one before.. But we got a chance to buy our tickets with this guy called Ernest Chia that Jessica thought had very beautiful eyes..
By the time we got our tickets.. It was already 5 minutes to the start of the show.. But Jessica was so nice to allow me to go down to take another look at my Beautiful Stranger.. And we saw his side view.. HeeX..
As for the movie.. I thought it was kinda dumb.. I must admit that some parts are funny.. And it was a kinda educational show for Singaporeans.. But I felt that it'll be so much more worth while if I had watched something else instead..
After the show.. I thought that Jean Yip would have closed by then.. Cause it was already nine plus.. But it didn't.. And I still get to see him sitting at the door.. (o^^o) I was like so super excited.. But I wonder if he saw me.. Or if he still rememebred me.. Anyway.. We purposely walk past again.. Although I didn't really dare to look over.. But I still managed to catch a glimpse of him.. But when we walk past again.. He was no longer sitting at the door.. HaiX..
So we went down to level one and I purposely stood at the directory in front of the escalators hoping that he'll knock off at nine-thirty.. We stood there and waited until nine-thirty but there was still no sign of him.. Jessica decided that we should not wait any longer.. But we didn't have a place to go.. So she suggested going back to see if Ernest was still around.. So we went back to the cinema.. And stood there for a while for Jessica to look at him..
Then after that.. The kind-hearted Jessica suggested that we stand at the railing on the third floor facing Jean Yip and wait.. So that I can get the see him if he leaves.. But we waited all the way till ten.. But there was absolutely no sign of him.. And we even purposely went down to buy Anderson's ice-cream which was located directly outside Jean Yip just to check if he's still around.. HaiX..
I'm so super disappointed.. And really upset.. I feel like crying.. Although I got to see him.. But it was from a kinda far distance.. I really wish I could look at him and talk to him like the other day.. And get his number or at the least his e-mail address.. But I didn't.. And I really doubt I'll ever get to see him again.. Cause his going to NS this week.. And I don't have a single way to contact him.. *SobX SobX* I wonder if he still remember me.. Maybe like what Jessica said.. He don't even remember me anymore.. SigH..
But whatever the case is.. I must really thanX Jessica.. For being so really nice towards this whole situation.. Who in the whole will be so willing to accompany me to stand at the railing looking like two complete idiots just for me to get a look at a stranger.. So I must really say.. Even after a million times.. "ThanX a lot girl! I love ya so much! *MuackZz*"..
I've been missing him so much this few days.. I can't seems to get him out of my thoughts.. I really think I've fallen for him.. Fallen in love with a complete stranger.. My Beautiful Stranger..
Did Anybody Tell You.. That You Mean The World To Me.. Did I Ever Get To Show You.. That You Were My Everything..
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Monday, June 14, 2004
Went to reborn my hair at Jurong Point's Jean Yip today.. And I got this super super cute guy to do my hair for me.. So lucky! And according to my sister.. His name is Vincent..Let me talk a bit about his appearance first.. He's really really really cute.. He looks like Melvin of 5B.. But he's more shuai.. He have a tattoo on his neck.. But he's definitely not the bengsters kind.. Instead.. He's the cool type..
As for his character.. He's like the most gentle.. Xi xin and sweet guy I ever seen.. Probably because he's a stranger to me.. He was like blowing for me everytime he use the straightener cause it's kinda hot.. Then when two drops of cream fell on my face.. He actually used his hands to clean it off for me.. I was like so close to blushing.. And he's kinda playful too.. HahaX.. He keeps disturbing his colleagues..
*SigH* Too bad he wouldn't be working there anymore.. Because he's going to NS next week.. *SobX sobX* I wouldn't be able to see my beautiful stranger again..
As for my hair.. It just looks the same when I reborn my hair.. Nothing much..
My mood definitely got better today.. All thanx to my beautiful stranger.. (o^^o)
You.. Light Up My Life.. You Gave Me Hope.. To Carry On..
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Saturday, June 12, 2004
*SigH* I can exactly conclude my guess.. He likes her.. Although I know I can't blame both of them for anything.. Cause afterall.. If I'm him.. I'll choose her as well.. Who in the right mind will choose an ugly duckling over a beauty.. *SigH*But I still can't get myself to talk to her.. Or anyone else.. I just don't feel alive anymore.. I just can't get myself to do anything.. I just want to hide in my room.. Away from everyone and anything..
I feel so super terrible.. I feel like crying.. *SobX SobX*
Cause All I Ever Seem To Do Is To Drift Away.. In Dreams.. About You..
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Friday, June 11, 2004
I've been listening to the same song for almost 50 times..Things didn't get any better for me.. But everything just seems to get worse..
Great.. So now I'm the one making up stories.. I'm the one being unreasonable.. I'm the one making a big fuss out of the whole thing.. I'm the one who spoil our friendship.. Be it.. I'm always in the wrong.. I'm used to it.. Blame me.. Shoot me.. Kill me.. I'm the bad guy..
So now I'm left with nothing.. Absolutely nothing.. My world just crumbled..
When Things Go Wrong.. All I Had Was You.. But Now.. I Have Nothing..
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I really wished I could be her.. She's a borned beauty.. With great intelligence.. And she's just everything a guy wants.. Understanding.. Caring.. Nice and everything.. Most importantly.. Most importantly.. She doesn't seems to be needing to search and pray for things.. But things just naturally go to her..
But what about me.. I'm just a silly and shallow ugly duckling.. Who always pray for the world.. But don't even get anything.. Whose wishes can only come true in my own dream and fantasies.. I hate being me! I hate myself! *SobX SobX*
This is the third time things have been happening this way.. But why of all people must it be her.. Why must it be her.. Why can't it be anyone but her.. Please.. Don't be so harsh on me.. Let it be anyone but her.. Please.. I know I'm being selfish at this point of time.. But I can't take it.. *SobX SobX*
I Must Be Wishing On The Wrong Star.. Cause Everything I Wish For.. She Gets..
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Went to town with Ms Tay.. Hui Teng.. Nadalala.. Izz.. Smm Yinn.. And supposingly Ms Tham.. But she stood us up.. We went to Billy Bombers for dinner.. And it was supposed to be Ms Tham's treat.. But she only showed up after Ms Tay paid for the meal.. And then she walked us all the way to Cineleisure and left us the six of us to watched Confessions Of The Teenage Drama Queen when she was the one who suggested to watch it.. It wasn't as nice as we all thought it will be.. Cause it's kinda over exaggerating.. And too typical.. HahaX.. But it was kinda funny though.. Oh yah.. And we applied what we were taught in school.. HahaX.. To be proud of your school and nation.. HahaX.. We sang the school song and one of the national songs while we walked to Somerset MRT station..HaiX.. I got a feeling things are gonna change between me and him.. In time to come.. Which is like kinda soon.. I guess we'll never be like now.. Cause he'll probably be forgetting me in no time.. *SigH* But I guess I souldn't be so selfish and greedy anyway.. Continue to act as if I owned him and refusing to let go when I myself is unsure of how I feel for him.. And so fickled as well.. I should just let him carry on with his own life and find someone who deserves his love.. Time and concern more than I do.. And I'll carry on with mine.. Moving towards my goals.. *SigH* But seriously.. I simply wished we could be good friends for long.. But I guess it's not gonna be easy.. *SigH*
I Felt Happier Living In Lies.. Than Having To Learn The Truth And Get Myself Hurt..
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Monday, June 07, 2004
Haven't blogged for almost a week.. Feel so guilty.. So I should summarised the happenings of this entire week which I didn't blog..I had my chalet on the 31st of May to the 2nd of June at Pasir Ris Coastal Sand.. Although everything didn't go as well as I expected.. And I cried a lot due to my timid and emotional character.. And I was exactly behaving like a zombie when I came home in the @nd of June becuase I didn't get like more than 3 hours of sleep for the two nights.. But it was afterall a very wonderful birthday.. And I must really thank every single one of them who went and helped.. ThanX a lot.. Love ya all so much.. *Huggies* But there was something that made me kinda upset about my chalet.. Which is we didin't take any photos.. *SobX* Jessica still suggested taking the whole process from the day we started buying the stuff to the end of the entire chalet.. But we end up not taking any photos..
After coming back from my chalet on the 2nd of June.. I left for Granty's birthday chalet on the 4th of June at Downtown East.. Aranda Country Club.. And I just reached home today.. Things didn't go very well for this chalet either.. Especailly yesterday.. Everything bad just seems to happen yesterday.. First.. My sister lost her wallet.. Good thing it didn't contain a lot of cash.. But it still held a lot of her memebership cards.. IC and her ATM and credit cards.. Kinda guilty.. Because I guess I am partly to be blamed for it.. Second.. My brother-in-law got a stone in his kidney and had top be admitted to A&E.. But fortunately everything was under control.. And thirdly.. This stupid crazy auntie came into the chalet to make a big fuss out of the mahjong thingie.. It totally got nothing to do with us.. It's the problem with contracts stuff the store- keeper signed.. And she actaully had the cheek to make a fuss in our chalet.. *SigH* Only slept at six this morning.. So I slept all the way till six in the evening when I came home.. HahaX..
As for today.. I should say now.. I'm so very very happy.. Cause I finally got the chance to talk to him.. The him I've been missing so much this entire week.. The him that I just couldn't get out of my mind.. And he wished me happy birthday.. (o^^o) Although it's like super belated.. But at least he still wished me.. HeeX..
Without You.. Everything I See Is Completely In Black And White.. But Now That You're Back.. You Painted My Life With Colours Again..
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