Tuesday, January 31, 2006
woah! it's already the second day of lunuar new year! how i wish i can live the first day of the lunuar new year forever so i'll never have to go back to school and adjust to the study and stressful mood again! haha. wishful thinking. haha. but it's good to have hopes and wishes sometimes yea? make life feels so much better. haha. okay okay. i think i'm starting to make no sense. haha. so sorry! :)
i had a great day yesterday! not only because of the ang baos of course. haha. :) went ah ma, great grandma and popo's place to visit as usual. but on top of that, i also went douglas's granny place to visit. :) most of his relatives are kinda friendly. especially his grandpa! haha! he's so super cute, funny and nice! haha! i think only douglas will understand what i mean. :) i hope i left them a good impression of myself this time round. especially his mum. hopefully she'll have a much better impression of me this time. :)
i paired up with kenneth (douglas's youngest brother) when we played blackjack yesterday. and we both won quite a bit! haha! lucky us! :) we then went over to jurong point to catch a midnight show of I Not Stupid Too together with his cousins and kenneath. the show's not bad. funny and touching at the same time. haha. but i think the funniest part of the whole thing is still kenneth. he talked so damn loud while the show was going on! haha! and he don't seems to feel embarassed about it at all. haha! so damn cute!
although i know that it've grown as a part of me. and i'm never gonna forget. but i feel myself starting to let go. starting to safekeep everything in the deepest part of my memories. :) and it's something that i should be really happy about. right?! cause i should be happy with what i have now. or i should say i'm really happy with what i have now.
"my boy! i love you loads! muacks! thanks a lot for everything. and i really mean everything. :)" I Know I Broke Your Heart. I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart.
2:39 AM
she writes
Sunday, January 29, 2006
unloved. :(
you never seems to know what went wrong. it makes me feel as though i'm always angry at you for no reason. i just wish you were a little more sensitive towards my feelings. hai :(
argh! i'm feeling so pms-sy right now. totally hate it!
the SAT paper totally sucks! i felt as though i paid a 120 bucks to torture myself! and what's worse is that i'm so very sure i'm not gonna make it. :(
stay off! i bite!
I'm Living The Past Over And Over Again.
6:17 AM
she writes
Friday, January 27, 2006
wo de xin. zhen de hao tong. hao tong.
you ku le.
zhen de bu xiang zai ku le.
yi jing bu zai zhi de le.
I Wish For All The Memories To Be Gone With The Wind.
4:23 PM
she writes
Friday, January 20, 2006
sorry my blog has been stagnant for so long. haven't been online for ages. computer was down. :( but it's okay! cause i've got a brand new computer now! :) yea! haha!
don't think i'll have the time to write a long post. so shall keep this short.
have been really stressed out and confused lately. about loads of stuff. there's like so much running through my mind. i really wish there's someone here to hear me out. someone who i can really pour my heart out to.
i really dunno how much longer will i be able to go on.
i feel so lost.
Cause It All Starts In Your Eyes. And It Filled Up All The Spaces In My Heart.
3:21 PM
she writes
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
my first day of school totally sucks!
my new civics tutor who happens to be my chemistry tutor as well is such a bitch! she's so freaking 'guai lan'!
i got a horrible woman as my econs tutor! she keep saying we're dumb!
i'm already feeling the stress as a J2 on my first day of school! we've already been noticed of 2 tests coming up next week and another coming up in week 3! and all the chemistry holidays assignments which i haven't touched is all due this week!
ah lian's making netball take up a lot of my time these 3 months! trainings, friendly matches, leagues, nationals and extra running sessions! all in the expense of my studies! damn her!
and most importantly. i totally miss my boy. :(
enough said.
so freaking tired.
shall start packing up and go to bed.
probably won't be going school tomorrow.
a new chapter of my life unfolds. :)
010106
Everytime You Go Away. My Heart Goes With You.
3:42 PM
she writes