Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Stayed home to rot for half a day.. Then Jessica came over.. We edited her blog together.. And now she loves her blog even more!
After that.. We went to Jurong Point and took our dinner at Long John's Silver.. Our usual spot.. Then went to walk around to look for Liang Liang's present.. Hahax! I'm not gonna mention what we got him.. Just in case it leaks out.. Hahax! But we're gonna make his present as "liang" as his name.. Hahax! It's okay if you don't get it! Hahax!
Jessica and me laughed and made a fool of ourselves while we were at Jurong Point! Hahax! As usual.. Jessica was like trying to arrange the untidy stack of photo albums at Popular! And then she complained that they didn't even give her a single cent for her effort! Hahax! What's exactly her problem! But.. That's Jessica! Hahax! We always made such a scene at the Converse shop that we sort of frightened the shop assitant! Hahax! We met quite a lot of weird people too! We saw this girl and this guy doing really stupid actions! And overwhelmed by the contagious laughing disease.. We couldn't help it but burst out laughing so loud! Hahax!
Okay.. I should end here.. Gotta wrap Liang Liang's "liang liang" present.. Hahax!
Till Your Heart Comes Back Where It Belong.. I Can't Play The Song..
2:28 PM
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I know I've learnt..
Now I've set a protective layer around myself.. And I'll never let you guys come close again.. I'll never risk getting myself hurt again..
When Life Gets Cold.. You Don't Have A Choice.. But Learn How To Survive..
6:50 AM
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Monday, November 29, 2004
It's like 4:30 a.m. and I'm still not asleep.. I wonder why.. Insomia?
HmmM.. What time do you think I should sleep? What time do you think I should wake up?
Ask me where I'm going tomorrow.. I don't know.. You think I should stay home and rot? I don't wanna go out spreading my viruses.. But I don't wanna rot.. I don't wanna stay home.. Where do you think I should go?
I feel as though I'm talking to myself..
Yes.. I am indeed talking to myself.. And that's what I've been doing for the past months.. But that's what blogging is all about.. Isn't it? Talking to yourself.. Hahax..
I feel so dumb all of a sudden.. What's my blog for? For people to read all my craps and rubbish?
Oh man! I'm seriously sick in the mind!
Please tell me I don't have to open my mouth to talk to anyone from this second on.. I really don't feel like talking anymore.. I just wish I can disappear..
I Think I've Already Lost You.. I Think You're Already Gone..
8:40 PM
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the happy Grant!
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the blur Grant!
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the mischievious Grant!
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the ugly smile Grant!
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Sis.. Granty and me.. At the theme park..
7:25 PM
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Grant and Daren..
7:24 PM
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my cousins! Daren and Benny!
7:23 PM
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cutez!
7:22 PM
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merry-go-round ride..
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Sis.. Mummy.. and Me!
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Grant on his first ride! he looks excited don't he.. hahax..
7:19 PM
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Sis and the irresitable cutie.. Granty!
7:17 PM
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Mummy.. Grandma.. And Granty.. With his new "yo-yo" cap..
7:17 PM
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great smile!
7:16 PM
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I'm back!
The trip was okay I guess.. I did enjoy myself.. But throughout the entire trip.. I was sort of like the loner girl.. Hahax.. I did a lot of things alone.. No choice.. Everyone has a company.. Except me.. I was sort of like the odd one out.. So I had to sit alone during the bus journeys.. And I went shopping alone too.. But I felt rather okay about it.. Kinda getting used to being alone..
The journey there was rather fast.. Reached Genting at about 4 plus on Thursday morning.. Grandma fainted while walking to the hotel.. Gave us all a fright.. And as usual.. Being so damn useless.. I was of no help.. All I did was to stand there and cry.. Sigh.. I'm seriously good-for-nothing.. So.. We called for an ambulance.. Sent her to the nearest clinic.. The doctor wanted her to be admitted into the hospital at KL.. But she didn't want to.. So she stayed in the hotel room to rest for most of the time.. And I was sharing the same room as her.. Felt kinda stressed.. Cause as you all know.. I'm so blur.. What if I didn't look after her properly? What if something happened.. And I start to panic and cry? So I tried to stay calm.. I made sure she slept before me.. And I wake up before her.. I watch take her medication every morning to ensure that she took the right kind of medicines..
Did a lot of walking on Thursday.. We went exploring the place cause there were lots of changes since we last been there.. We went to play pool.. And my skill improved by quite a bit.. All thanx to the patience guidance or my brother-in-law.. Then after the pool game.. We went to play bowling.. My bowling skill.. Not much improvemnt I guess.. But I did strike once.. Hahax.. Me.. My Sister.. And my Brother-in-law also went into the haunted mansion.. And I seriously realised.. I'm getting more and more timid.. I was not even one-quarter into the mansion.. I had already burst out crying so badly that my sister had to sacrifice and allow me to hold on to my brother-in-law.. Hahax! And when I was out of the mansion.. My eyes were so red and swollen that everyone was staring at me.. How embarassing! Hahax.. We watch a movie there too! The Incredibles! Hahax! It was a great show! So funny! Jack Jack and Dash are so cute! Hahax!
On Friday.. We bought the indoor and outdoor theme park tickets.. And of course.. We tried to make used of it to the fullest.. We sat the Space Shot.. It was so scary! I almost burst out crying! See! I told you! I'm getting more and more timid day by day! What's wrong with me? We also sat the dragon ride.. The bumper car.. The indoor roller coaster.. The stimulator.. The Rio Float.. And the deer ride.. Hahax! I sat the swing ride alone cause no one shared the same interest.. And also the Jumbo ride with Granty.. Hahax! But we still missed quite a bit.. Like the Corkscrew.. It was down.. So sad! And the new roller coaster ride.. Which is only starting on the 1st December.. We also gave the Mine Train and Log Fume a miss due to time constraint..
On Saturday.. We went down to KL for shopping.. But can you believe! I didn't buy anything there! Despite the fact that Times Square was like about 10 storeys high! Why? Because I was down with a high fever.. Cough.. Bad flu.. And a headache.. I tried my best to force myself to shop on.. While I was like almost close to fainting.. Hahax!
I was feeling so pissed that I didn't get anything at KL that I insisted on going shopping upon returning to Genting.. My aunt tried to stop me.. But I told her that even if I was to die.. I would rather die shopping! Hahax! So of course.. She was at a loss of words.. She knew she ocouldn't stop me.. She just let me go.. Hahax! The first thing I got was the pair of earrings that I simply can't take my eyes off since the first day I arrived.. And then.. I got a pair of slippers.. Or is it a sandals? Whatever! The point is.. That's when I met this really cute guy.. He wasn't cute in the sense of good-looking cute.. He was cute in a sense of personality.. Hahax! He was the sales assistant in the shop where I bought the slippers.. I first started out trying the few pairs that I really really like.. But the one on display wasn't of my size.. So he went to help me retrive those of my size from the store.. Then after trying.. I realised those pairs that I really fancy did't look nice on me.. So I started picking out some others.. But they weren't my size either.. I was kinda embarassed to trouble him again.. So I tried to look for someone else to help me get my size.. But he always to be happen to be near me.. I don't know why.. So I had no choice but to ask for his help again.. So there he went.. In and out of the store.. So many times.. Just to help me get the sizes I asked for.. So nice right! Hahax! But I was so embarassed! Everytime he came out of the store.. I apologised to him.. But all he did was to laugh! Hahax! So cute! Then after I went back to the room and changed.. I met my sister and we went shopping.. Again! Hahax! And she went back to the exact same shop to get footwear too! Hahax! I was like.. "Oh no!" Once I stepped into the shop and immediately caught sight of that guy.. And I couldn't help it.. I just burst out into laughter.. He saw me and he started laughing too.. And on coincidence.. My sister approached him to ask for assitance too.. That was when we both started laughing so hard that his entire face turned so red that he had to turn away before attending to my sister again.. Hahax! He's really cute! Fortuantely.. My sister bought the same pair of slippers as I did.. And another pair of heels.. If not it will be so damn embarassing.. The heels there were so nice.. But too bad I look like a super tall freak if I was to wear heels.. If not I would have bought a pair too.. When we were leaving the shop.. I waved bye bye to him.. And he smiled at me.. So cute! Hahax! And when I turned back.. His friend was like down there waving.. Hahax! So I just waved back..
Didn't get to do much on Sunday.. Cause we're taking the bus at 2 in the afternoon to head back to Singapore.. Simply accompanied my sister to do more shopping cause she won some money in the casino.. Grandma wasn't feeling too well again.. She was like close to fainting again.. Sigh.. When I went back to the room to pack.. She was like lying there.. So I went to sit beside her to ask her how she was.. And she cried! She apologised to me! She told me that we shouldn't have brought her along.. She was such a burden and she spoilt our trip.. I was so heart-broken when I heard that.. I didn't know how to react.. I tried very hard to hold back my tears in order not to make her feel any worst..
Our bus was delayed due to some traffic jam.. So we only managed to get on the bus at about 3.. Reached home at about 12 plus cause there was a traffice jam at Tuas.. And a bit of delayed due to some other reasons.. That I couldn't be bothered to explain.. So you can see that it was a terribly long bus journey which lasted about 9 hours.. But it was quite okay for me.. Cause I got the chance to think about quite a lot..
Sigh..
I guess the anonymous who tagged was right.. I'm just this selfish freak that wanted him to be there for me when I'm alone.. He treated me so well and was always there for me.. What gives me the right to scold him.. What gives me the right to hate him..
I hate myself for being selfish!
I hate myself for being weak!
I hate myself for being useless!
I just simply hate myself to the core!
From now on.. I am going to stand on my two feet.. And depend on no one else but myself.. I'm never gonna go crying to anyone when I'm upset.. Or bother anyone with my own stupid problems.. I'm gonna handle and face everything myself.. I'm gonna be strong.. Probably only through this way.. I wouldn't need anybody.. Or be so affected by a stupid promise that to always be there when I needed someone..
How much does a promise cost anyway..
I'm So Broken.. I Know I'm Never Gonna Mend..
7:15 PM
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
This is gonna be my last post before I leave.. After this.. You guys will be able to take 4 days breaks from all my whinings.. Complains.. And all the crap stuff I'm been talking about..
Actually.. I got nothing to write about.. Just blogging for the sake of blogging I guess.. Nothing much to do now.. Just waiting for time to past..
It's raining again..
"I know I said in one of the previous post that that's gonna be the last post dedicated to you.. But I can't help it.. I know I got to write all this down.. Just to make myself feel better..
I hate you!
First you told me that you have your own problems! Fine! I left you alone! I stop bugging you as much as I could with my stupid problems! And now that I'm sure that I will be able to handle my own problems.. And that I'm determined to forget about everything that happened between us in the past.. You come over and tell me that actually you don't have much of your own problems and you'll be more than happy to share my problems!
What exactly do you want me to do!
I really don't wanna live those days again! Those days where I really needed you! But you were never there!
I hate the way you're treating me too! Nice at a moment.. And cold at the next!
Stop attacking my broken heart will you!
You know I cannot hold on much longer..
Especially when you're no longer there for me..
I wish you will call me now.. Talk to me.. Tell me something that I really wanna hear..
You've really changed.. Changed into someone that I no longer understand.. I no longer know.. But if you feel happier this way.. Be it.. I'll feel happy for you too..
The reason why I didn't want to leave.. Is because I don't wanna forget.. I really don't wanna let go..
But now.. Be it you really don't know that the one that I'm talking about is you.. Or you're just trying to avoid.. Cause I guess.. Soon.. All these wouldn't matter to me anymore..
Just as much as they no longer matters to you.."
The Leaves That Have Fallen From A Tree.. Will Soon Be Replaced By New Ones.. The Flowers That Withered.. Will Soon Bloom Again.. But The Feelings That Are Lost.. Can Never Be Found..
9:00 AM
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Just came back from school not long ago.. Went back to collect report book.. CCA card.. Leaving Certificate.. This letter call "Form A".. And the booklet in which contains the information of the different JCs.. Like the one we got in Primary 6.. But just that this one is much thinner..
So anyway.. I got a bad and good news to share.. Okay.. The bad news first.. The school told us that we can only fill in the online application for the 3 months course starting from tomorrow to 27th November.. In another words.. It means that I wouldn't be able to apply.. Cause I'll be leaving tonight and coming back on the 28th.. But Suxian is nice enough to offer to help me.. So nice right..
"Lao gong! Thanx a lot! I love ya! *Hugx*"
But the good news is.. We will be able to make use of the bonus point for the application for the 3 months course.. So now.. After moderation of 3 points and bonus 4 points.. I now have an L1R5 of 13 points.. So.. I've decided.. I'm choosing SAJC as first choice.. Although the cut-off point is 11 points for the Arts stream.. And although I wanna go into science stream.. But since u can always change course after I get back the results for O's.. And maybe I'll find myself to like Arts subjects.. So I thought I should just give it a try.. No harm.. Cause it's like 50% chance.. It's either they take me or they don't.. Hahax.. Then I'll most probably be choosing CJC's Science Stream as 2nd choice.. Then SAJC again.. But this time the Science Stream.. Then from the 4th choices onwards are all filled in for the sake of filling in.. Cause like there are 12 choices.. So why not just make use of it..
Mummy is really really nice during this period of time.. When I was having O's.. She wake up at the same time as me just to make me breakfast and chicken essence.. And wish me good luck.. Then everytime I feel stress or feel upset about the papers.. She'll just tell me if I cannot go into my dream JC.. I can always go into some other JCs.. Or even a poly.. And that if I put in the effort.. I'll be able to make it big anywhere.. Then just now.. While I was discussing with her about what JCs to choose.. She told me that if I really got posted to somewhere that I don't like for the first 3 months.. Then I can always don't go for the 3 months course and just wait for my results to be out.. Hahax.. So nice right? I feel so touched..
"Mummy.. Although I know you wouldn't get the chance to read this.. But I really must say.. Thanx a million! I love ya so much! *MuackZzZ*"
Jessica bought me this penguin stuffed toy from Precious Moments for me to bring along on my trip.. So sweet right.. It's grey.. With a white face and a white tummy.. An orange beak.. A pair of tear drop shaped eyes.. A pair of orange webbed feet.. And also very rough tail and hair.. Hahax.. But afterall.. It's really really cute.. But I haven't thought of a name for it.. Any suggestions?
"Hey girl! Thanx a million! You're really really sweet! And you always seems to be able to sense how I'm feeling even without me telling you.. The stuff toy is really really gonna come in handy during the trip.. Whenever I feel lonely and upset.. I'll definitely feel much better just looking at it.. Cause it'll remind me of you.. And you never fail to make me feel better.. Thanx a lot girl! *MuackZzZ*"
Didn't really get the chance to see Melvin today.. Just caught a glimpse of him when I turned back.. Hahax.. But I heard him speaking in Chinese.. Hahax.. It's probably gonna be 3 months before I'll get to see him again.. Sigh.. I'm definitely gonna miss him..
Doreen will be leaving for Paris tomorrow for a holiday.. Alone! Oh my gosh right! Kinda worried for her.. Cause afterall.. She's still a 16 years old girl.. But I'm sure she'll take good care of herself.. Suxian is gonna leave for Bangkok tomorrow as well.. Kinda worried for her too.. As you know.. Recently.. Terrorists' attacks.. But I'm sure nothing's gonna happen.. She'll be fine.. I'll be praying for the both of them..
I'm feeling much better today.. And it's probably because I got to see all my friends today again.. They never fail to make my day..
"Thanx a lot guys! I love you all! A lot!"
Even If We Cannot Walk Together Hand In Hand Together Till The End Of Time.. You'll Still Be The One I'm Never Ever Gonna Forget..
5:57 AM
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Okay.. I've completed one of the things that I wanted to do after my O's.. Which is to settle my relationship problems.. I tied a knot to the existing relationship as well as the non existing one.. I ended the relationship which was going no where.. And I told Eng Chee that it's never gonna be possible between us again.. I bet Jessica will be so proud of me when she sees this.. Thanx to her.. Her cousin.. And her cousin's friends' advices..
"I love you girl! *MuackZzZ*"
So now.. It's gonna be the relationship-free period for me.. Until the mid of next year.. Hopefully..
I'm seriously.. Seriously.. Seriously upset.. I can't seems to be able to hold back my tears any longer.. What's wrong with me?
The One Who Promises To Heal Your Heart.. Is The One Who Ends Up Breaking It..
2:21 PM
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I'll be leaving tomorrow night at 9.. And everyone in the family has packed.. Everyone except me.. I'm usually the first one to finish packing.. But this time.. I really don't feel like packing.. I really don't feel like going..
I'll Be Your Shining Stars.. To Guide You Where Ever You Are.. And I Promise That I'll Be By Your Side.. Always You And I..
5:32 AM
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
eggie lovers!
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open sesame!
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at a corner of the picture.. hahax..
6:43 PM
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twinkle twinkle little star..
6:42 PM
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pretty! and if you ever notice.. everyone in e backgrnd is looking at the camera too! cool!
6:41 PM
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sexay~!
6:40 PM
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another group pic
6:39 PM
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group pic..
6:38 PM
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Oh yah.. Anyway.. I'm back into the single hood! Isn't it great! I'm not trying to say that I'm damn happy about the break up.. Just feel that being single is still the best.. No worries.. No hurt.. Just pure freedom.. Just like I always wanted..
It's So Hard To Say.. How A Love Could End This Way.. The One That Used To Care For You.. Just Turn To Walk Away..
6:07 PM
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"I've decided to let my mind tell me what to do this time.. And not my heart.. This is gonna be the last post dedicated to you.. Afterwhich.. I'll take the 5 days that I'll be away for holiday to forget everything.. Forget all the times that we shared together.. All the places we went together.. All that you've said to me.. Everything.. And just treat you like an ordinary friend.. I got to learn how to handle my own problems.. I got to learn how to cry on my own.. I got to learn how to be independent.. I got to move on.. With or without you with me.. But no matter what.. I wish you'll always be happy.. Just like now.."
98 Degrees - Because Of You
You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all)It's all because of you
You're my sunshine, oh yeah
Baby I really know by now
Since we met that day
You showed me the way
I felt it then
you gave me love, I can't describe
How much I feel for you
I said baby I should have known by now
Should have been right therewhenever you gave me love
And if only you were here
I'd tell you, yes I'd tell you (oh yeah)
[Chorus]
Honestly could it be you and me
Like it was before neither less or more
'Cause when I close my eyes at nightI
realize that no one else could ever take your place
I still can feel and it's so unreal
When you're touching me, kisses endlessly
It's just a place in the sun where our love's begun
I miss you, yes I miss you baby, oh yeah
[Chorus]
If I knew how to tell you what's on my mind
(Make you understand)
The I'd always be there right by your side
[Chorus]
You're my sunshine
You're my sunshine
Oh yeah
"I'm dedicating this song to you.."
5:41 PM
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I got a hair cut today.. And now I look totally totally horrible I can must as well just die! My face looks totally round with this hair too! Gosh! Just hope that it will grow back really quick.. Sigh..
But as a consolation to that.. Vincent was the one who did my hair today! Again! And he remembers me! (*^-^*) He's still looks quite the same.. Still as shuai and as cute! But we didn't really talk much today.. So sad right.. He didn't seems to be in a very good mood.. And he didn't seems to be feeling very well either..
"I was walking home tonight and I saw stars twinkling in the sky.. I thought about you.. Many many unhappy things have been happening to me.. And everytime something happens.. The first person I thought of telling it to.. Is you.. I wish I could see you.. Hug you and cry like how I used to.. But you're never there anymore.. Why? Why does your number seems so unfamiliar to me now? I know you have your own problems.. And it's very irritating and selfish of me to be always bugging you about my own problems.. I'm sorry! I promise I will never ever bug you with my problems again.. I'm sorry.."
I'll Be The Air That You Breathe.. I'll Give You Strength That You Need.. I'll Be The Light In Your Eyes.. When Hopes Become Hard To See..
1:58 PM
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Monday, November 22, 2004
Went to Sentosa with Jessica.. Suxian and Wan Mei today.. And met Zhen Zhen and Horny there.. Had quite a lot of fun.. We went Kayaking.. Played volleyball.. Swam.. Tanned.. And also played Captain's Ball with 4 persons..
After we left Sentosa.. We went to eat at Yoshinoya.. Then went back Lot 1 cause Wan Mei needa meet her mum.. Borrowed 2 books from the library.. Gotta at least read something.. Don't want my brains to turn rusty this holiday..
Sorry.. Gotta keep today's post short and brief.. Cause my arms are aching so badly.. So are my legs.. And my skin is really hurting.. Cause they're burnt.. Especailly my shoulders and my face.. They're like really red..
I think I'll be stopping here for today.. Feel so sick physically and mentally.. Think I better turn in early tonight too.. Bet I'll fall sick tomorrow.. Gosh! That's bad..
I'm still upset.. Even more upset than yesterday or the day before.. What is exactly wrong with me! Have the sun burnt my brains as well?!
When I Fall.. You're Never There To Pick Me Up Anymore.. When I Cry.. You're Never There To Dry Up My Tears Anymore.. When I Need You.. You're Never There Anymore.. I Miss You..
2:37 PM
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
I spent my entire day in town today! And I bought lots of things! And obviously.. Spent lots of money..
Met Jessica at 11 at Far East.. Was a little late.. As usual.. Hahax.. She got a haircut.. And it looks great I should say.. But I mean.. She always do.. Don't she? Hahax.. We started to walk around.. In search of her swim suit.. As well as my bag and shorts.. But after like 3 hours plus.. We didn't get any of the things we planned to buy.. But instead.. I bought a brown skirt! I always don't seems to act according to plan.. But whatever.. As long as I'm happy.. =D
Jessica left at around 1 plus to meet her aunt and mummy.. So I was at Plaza Singapura walking alone when Tepang called to ask me what kinda top to buy for a girl.. He was alone at Far East looking for a birthday present for Ying Jie.. Hahax.. And he actually woke up early so that he can go look for a present for her before he goes to work.. So sweet! Things seems to be improving between them.. Okay.. Back to my point.. So I was kind enough to extend a hand to help him.. We met at Heeren.. And within a very limited time.. I choose this blue Stussy top with stars printings for him.. It was simple and sweet.. To be frank.. I kinda like it.. Hope she'll like it too!
After we got the top.. Tepang left for work.. So I went to Tangs to meet Mummy and Auntie Irene.. Together with her daughters.. Her daughter was looking for a prom dress! Oh man! Don't remind me! If not for the stupid school! I should be looking for my prom dress too! But by the time I met them.. She have already bought her dress.. Didn't get to see how it look like.. But heard it's black.. So we went to take a walk at Taka.. Talked quite a bit with her daughter.. Can't help it.. It've been ages since I last saw her.. The last time I saw her it was like before I even entered primary school.. It's almost like a decade ago! That's really long!
Mummy had to leave for lesson at about 4 plus.. So Auntie Irene left with her.. And I was left in town all alone.. Doing shopping all by myself.. And I bought this Ripcurl's shorts that was really really nice! But really really expensive too.. $59.90.. Hahax.. I nearly bought this Reef slipper which cost $28.. But fortunately.. They don't have my size.. If not.. I bet I'll be damn broke.. I also went to Topshop.. And the 2 skirts I wanted is gone.. *Sobx* All thanks to the change of season.. Anyway.. I got to learn something today.. Shopping alone can be really fun if you have the money! Hahax..
I met Gennie.. Heng Pei and Zhen Zhen at Wisma.. Gennie got her hair done.. Really nicely.. Hahax.. Zhen Zhen didn't want to go home yet.. Cause she only bought one skirt.. So we continue the shopping spree while Gennie and Heng Pei headed for home.. We went to Heeren.. With the intention of heading for Far East after that.. But Zhen Zhen's legs just refuse to budge anymore.. So we headed for home.. Without getting any thing..
My legs totally didn't hurt a bit while I was shopping earlier on.. And I didn't feel tired either.. But now my legs are seriously aching.. And I'm dead tired.. But hope I'll still be able to enjoy my day at the beach tomorrow..
Guess what.. My Monday is runied.. Not exactly the entire day.. Just the night.. Me and Jessica actually made plans to go to Marina to eat steamboat with 3 other guy friends.. But 2 of them are not going anymore! Without even telling us! Guys really suck don't they! Bastards! But whatever man! Not as if I'm really dying to eat with them.. Whatever! With a big fat capital W!
I'm still feeling upset.. Over what? I'll tell no one..
You're So Beautiful.. And I Got My Eyes On You..
3:26 PM
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Ask me what I'm doing online at this hour! It's only 8:40 in the morning! And I'm already sitting here typing away! Something is wrong with me! Really really wrong!
I missed my show on tv cause I remembered the wrong time.. It was showing at 12.. And I thought it was showing at 12:50.. So of course.. By the time I went out and settled myself comfortably on the chair and on the table.. It had already finished.. And I can't watch the reapeat which is showing today either.. Cause it's at 11.. And I'm supposed to already be in town at that time..
So I washed up and went to bed at around 1.. But I just couldn't seems to fall asleep.. It's not the first time that this is happening.. I always can't get to sleep on the night before any papers cause I'm just too nervouse.. But now O's have already finished.. So why am I still having sleepless night? I think I'm suffering from insomia!
It have been raining the whole night.. I heard it.. And what's this supposed to mean.. It means that even when I thought I fell asleep.. I wasn't sleeping well.. Cause I'm still hearing things..
But I guess that's not the worse.. The worse part is.. I woke up 6:40 this morning and I couldn't get to sleep anymore.. I tossed and turned in bed refusing to accept the fact.. But I finally gave up at 8:10 and dragged myself outta bed.. Gosh! I bet I'm gonna have eye bags soon if I continue like that..
What's wrong with me!
I know what's wrong..
I'm feeling upset..
Nobody Wants To Be Lonely.. Nobody Wants To Cry..
12:54 AM
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
Okay.. Guess what.. I just realised I got myself into trouble.. Big trouble.. Shouldn't go into details..
I just read Zhen Zhen's blog.. And tat fucking loser is still tagging.. What's the fucking problem with him or her.. Should just refer as 'it'.. Can't it just fuck off and get a life.. If its not happy with what its seeing.. Just stop reading the blog.. I bet its just another pathetic and lonely soul seeking attention.. Man! What is this world becoming to! Gosh!
Anyway.. Sorry for the harsh words I used.. Can't help it.. But like I said before.. This is my blog.. I write what I want.. And if you're not happy with what you're seeing.. Get lost! *Opps* Hahax..
Should be off to watch tv and then go to bed.. Meeting Jessica at 11 at town tomorrow.. Shopping! So exciting!
I Don't Believe In Remeos Or Heroes Anymore..
5:35 PM
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Larry.. Woon Wei.. Zhen Zhen.. And Horny~
2:05 PM
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06 gals! With poor Siim Ynn cut out of the picture..
2:04 PM
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Me together with Jessica! My potentail lesbian partner!
2:02 PM
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