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Friday, May 27, 2005

Wo men de cheng nuo yi yue lai yue yao yuan.
Hao xiang yuan yuan dou bu hui shi xian le.

When You Say You Love Me.
Do You Know How I Love You.

2:08 PM

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Haven't been blogging since.. Erm.. Haha! It's like ages since I blogged! I can't even remember when was the last time I blogged! So this will definitely be a rather long post as I'll be like including the eventful days that I spent. Bear with me people! Haha!

Saturday (21st May)
Went to town with Tepang with the idea of catching the movie 'The Amityville Horror', but we didn't catch it in the end. Instead, we walked around town in search of bikinis, Adidas sweaters and slippers. After like one entire day in town, I only bought a pink and black Adidas slipper which cost me $39.90. I also found a Roxy bikini which caught my attention, but it's like super expensive! $136! Didn't find any Adidas sweater that I really really like. Cause all I had in mind was the one which is brown in colour. But I supposed that's a rather old model so they're no longer selling it in the stores.

Sunday (22nd May)
Went Queensway with Jessica, Kenny and Tepang. Continued looking for my Adidas sweater, but still didn't manage to find any that I'm really really satisfied with. After Queensway, we headed for Ikea and then Jurong Point. We also brought Jessica to look at the bangalah (Don't know if it's spelt like that, but who cares! Haha!) picnic area! Haha! It's located at the big field behind Boon Lay Mrt station.You guys should go take a look if you have a chance too! Especially during Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights! It's super fasinating! Once it gets dark, you will be able to see loads of shirts floating in the middle of nowhere! I think the government should really consider introducing that place as one of Singapore's tourist attractions! Haha! I'm so racist! But you can't blame me! They're the one who don't carry themselves well. You can see them holding hands everywhere! Can you imagine 2 men holding hand, fingers interlocking, walking in the public! And it's not like once in a blue moon that you see this happening! I've seen it so many times! Such a turn off!

Monday (23rd May)
Went Jurong Point with Mummy with the intention to do an eye check. Cause, my right eyes have been like hurting every time I put on my contact lens. But I eneded up making a new pair or spectacles and a new pair of disposable contact lens. Suprisingly, I didn't get a pair of rimless spectacles. Instead, I got the kind with the plastic frame. It's light purple in colour. The optician said that I'm having a minor infection in my right eye and I should avoid wearing contact lens for a week. So Mummy insisted that I left my old pair of contact lens there for service so as to ensure that I completely stay off from contact lens. My new spectacles will only be ready one week later and both my old and new pair of contact lenses will only be ready for collection tomorrow. Which means, I have to wear my old pair of glasses to school for the time being. Which I have already been doing for the past 2 days. I look so totally gross! Xiaoli burst out laughing when she saw me in my old glasses! That's how bad it is.

In the evening, I went to eat steamboat at Marina Bay with Mummy, Daddy, Sister, Brother-in-law, Grant and Tepang. Mummy said it was sorta an advanced birthday celebration for me, but it totally don't feel like it! Haha! But it's okay. I'm already happy enough that we can sit down as a family and have dinner together! Daddy even made a very funny comment when he saw me eating bacon! He said "Ni chi zhe me duo you you de dong xi, ming tian ni kan ni zi ji yi ding ye shi you you de!" (translation: "You eat so much oily stuff, I bet when you look at yourself tomorrow, you'll also be oily!" o.O" Haha!

A bit of drama happened when we were there. This couple sitting at our next table "da bao" some food back. But unfortunately, they were caught and the owner of the place confronted them. Instead of putting back the food and apologising, the woman actually knocked over some stuff on the table and shouted "Wo bu guan! Wo Bu guan!" (translation: "I don't care! I don't care!") She even took a 1.5 litres bottle filled with water to hit the owner and then tried to escape! When the owner caught up with them, she opened her bag and started throwing all the food that she "da bao" on the road then ran off! It's like so omg can! Singaporeans' behaviour are like getting from bad, to worse, to atrocious! I bet the owner delibrately let them off! If not he could have easily caught up with them! The best part of this entire situation is that they got caught not because the workers saw them packing the food, but because their actions were recorded down by the cameras installed on the ceiling! I never knew a steamboat place at Marina Bay will have cameras installed on their ceilings! Haha! The owner's indeed a very smart man!

We had House Carnival today, which was also known as sports' day, except that there wasn't any individual events. I took part in the 4x400m girls relay together with Xiaoli, Germaine and another J2 girl called Samantha. We came in last unfortunately. But I believed we all put in our very best! So I still feel very proud of all of us! Thanks for all who supported me during the run! The 05S11 peeps, the netball seniors as well as a few guys whom I totally got no idea who they were. Cause all I heard was their cheerings, but I didn't see any of their faces. "Thanks so much for cheering me on! *hugs*"

I'm starting to miss my friends again. Sigh. Xiao Xian. Jiamin. Wanmei. Nadalala. Zhen Zhen. 05A42, especially Sheryl the bimbotic walnut. Saints netball team and Jessica especially. Sigh.

"I miss you so much too. Sigh. Hope today's training will be great for you. *hugs*"

"My one and only rock club member! Cheer up boy! If there's anything that I may be of help, remember I'm just a call away alright? Take care! *hugs*"

I'm Searching For Words. And You Haven't Heard.

12:13 PM

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

Just came back from training not long ago. Training was definitely super duper tiring today! Started off with a 2.4km run. Lucky Ying Hui (don't know if I spelt her name right) was running together with me. If not the run would have felt like forever. After the run, we did warm up, passes, drills then game! Gosh! It was just running, running and more running! Didn't really perform well during training today especially during the game. Sigh! I need somebody to tell me how to build up on my confidence.

Training's getting tougher and tougher as day past. We gonna start on our 5km run really soon. We have to come in in 26 mins for the run. Even with my best 2.4km run timing. I doubt I can make it. And we're also gonna do this thing call power run. It's sorta like a 1.6km run. We've to come in in 2:10 mins for the first 400m. Then 2 mins for the 2nd 400m. 1:50 for the 3rd 400m. And lastly 1:40 for the last 400m. Gosh! Imagine running 6.6km every training! But before all that start, I so badly needa get an ankle guard. My right ankle's hurting like crazy. It haven't recovered from the last time I sprained it. And I doubt that's it's ever gonna recover.

Tomorrow's gonna be another long day for me. Lesson will only be ending at 3:30. And I'm having training for my track event at 5 tomorrow! Gosh! Running again! But that's not the worse. I'm having pe and training on Friday! More running! And I may be having a match on Saturday! But hopefully, I pray hard that coach wouldn't put me in for Saturday's game. What's the point?! He got like more than enough shooters in J2. And it's a Saturday! It's like the only day that I can get up late! I really don't wanna get up early! Not only that. I'm totally like so not prepared. I don't have the confidence to play. I'm so gonna freak out during the game!

I got so many places I wanna head to this weekend! I wanna go town and Queensway! Gotta go pick my new bikini! Haha! So exciting! As well as get my slippers and sports bra! So hopefully this weekend will really be a long weekend for me. Hopefully I can fully make use of my Saturday, Sunday and Monday. So pray hard for me that I don't hafta play the match on Saturday okay?

I'm having Maths test tomorrow! S1, S2 and S3! 3 chapters! I haven't prepared for it yet! Haha! And yet I'm like still happily typing away here! Haha! This is just me!

I've revised my buying list again! Haha!

Bikini
Spectacles
Contact lens
Bags
Handphone
Adidas sweater
Jeans
Adidas slipper
Ipod/Ipod Mini
Three-quarter pants
Shorts
Loads of tops

Ta-da!

I'm so gonna need to save loads and loads of money for all of that.

Tepang's so so so so so so sweet! He dropped a pack of Famous Amos cookies for me at my house just now before I got home! So sweet right! Although I didn't get to see him today, but he still made my day! "Thanx a lot dear! So sweet of you! *Muackz*"

Tepang's having a match now. Wanted to go down to watch. But today's a Wednesday. Mummy will never allow me to go. I forgot who they're playing against. But whatever it is, hope they'll win and most importantly he'll play well! Good luck!

From The Moment I Saw Your Face. And Felt The Fire In Your Sweet Embrace. I Swear I Knew. I Wanna Love You Forever.

11:32 AM

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Tepang woke up early in the morning to cook me curry chicken yesterday! Haha! So sweet right! *hugs* Although it wasn't spicy, but at least it was edible! Haha! And there were even big potatoes inside!

As for today, nothing much happened. Went to school as usual although I didn't feel like cause it was like raining super heavily in the morning. Got to know that 05S11 is having a chalet in the june holidays! If I'm not wrong is the 22nd, 23rd, and 24th of June! So exciting! Can't wait! Can't wait to get class jersey too! Oh yah! Xiaoli commented that my eye bags today are darker or should I say blacker than normal! Omg! That bad?! I think I'm seriously lacking sleep!

Chemistry test tomorrow! So stress! Although I started preparing for it yesterday. But until now I still cannot memorise a lot of terms! So dead! Don't wanna fail like my last test!

I revised my buying list! Haha! And since my birthday is coming soon, I shall post it up so you all will get the hint! Haha! *grin* So thick skinned!

Bikini (My sis is getting it for my birthday! Again!)
Adidas slipper (I guess I'm getting it this weekend)
Handphone (Don't know if I should get 7270 as plan or buy a 3G phone)
Ipod/Ipod mini
Jeans
Three-quarter pants
Shorts
Bags
Tops (Loads and loads of them!)

If you break a cup, you may be able to glue back all the pieces. It may still be able to hold the same amount of water without any leakages. But it will never be the same old cup again. It wouldn't feel or look the same anymore. The surface wouldn't be as smooth as it used to be. It will be filled with cracks.

Just like you and me.

My Worse Nightmare Is You Turning Your Back On Me. Without Even Looking Back.

12:37 PM

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

Haven't been blogging for quite a number of days. Partly is because I haven't got the time, but another reason is because I'm just lazy. Haha! But I sorta made it up to Tepang huh? I promised him that I wouldn't come online on Monday, but I did. So I made it up to him by not coming online for 5 days! Haha!

Nothing much happened in school this week. Had 3 tests. Economics, GP and Maths. Economics and Maths were rather easy while I got a little tip for GP test. *grin* Handed in my final preliminary idea for project work yesterday. Our group proposal is sorta approved as well. Felt as if a big part was lifted off my work load. Hope our project will go smoothly for the rest of the year. I also completed my napfa test yesterday. Got a C for my inclined pull-up. As usual. B for sit and reach! Which is so totally unacceptable can! I deproved from 51cm to 45cm! How can that be! I got A for all the rest, which gives me a 27 points overall. But I was expecting 28 points at least! Argh!

I don't really know with schools now, they're like looking through blogs and friendsters to see if their students write anything about the school. First BP and now PJ. So crapped! So now we are not even allowed to express our thinking huh? Oh yah! I forgot we can be sued for that! This is crap!

Watched Coach Carter on Thursday with Tepang, Jessica and Kenny. We didn't arrange for it, it was purely out of coincidence. Haha! We coincidentally met Liling too! Haha! Anyway, Coach Carter was quite a nice show.

I'm really losing faith.

Your Love's Like The Summer Rain. Washing My Downs Away.

9:48 AM

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

When Tepang was walking me home just now, we saw this 2 students from PJC, a guy and a girl sitting at the citizen corner. I didn't have an idea if they were J1 or J2 students, cause there are like almost 2000 students in the school. Neither did I manage to see their faces, cause it was rather dark. But that's not the point, the point is, the guy commented something very very loudly when we walked past. "Her reputation sucks! Everyway she goes, she sucks!" was what he said. I don't know if he was refering to me, but it was definitely meant for us to hear, cause he said it especially loudly.

Although I pretended that I don't give a damn about what I heard in front of Tepang, but the truth is, I'm actually kinda affected by his comment. Not pissed, but just seriously upset. I know I shouldn't be. Cause I don't even know if he was refering to me. But if he is, I guess I should be more or less use to it. It's afterall not the first time I got negative comments from total strangers. And like what I used to tell myself. "It's their mouth, you can't do anything to stop them. Let them say whatever they like. It wouldn't cause you to lose a piece of your meat."

How I wish everything was that simple.
How I wish I could make myself feel stronger by telling myself all these.

Things haven't been going well for me in school. I hate school! I really hate school! It's not about the studies, homework or tests that I hate. It's the people, the environment and everything. I won't mind going to school if no one has to talk to anyone else. All of us just have to go there to attend lectures and tutorials. Everyone just goes to school for the pure sake of learning and nothing else. I feel like such a loser having to admit to myself that I'm a loner. I really wish I had you people around me.

Anyway, I gotta thanks Tepang for being so protective towards me. He sorta indirectly got back at that guy for me. "Thanks my dear! *hugs* I'm really touched!"

Skipped Economics make-up lecture to watch House of Wax with Tepang just now. And to make up for that, I had to study really hard and not come online for two days. But I thought that I really wanna blog, so I came online. "Sorry!" Better be off to study now. Don't wanna break the other part of the promise now that I've broken the first part. Anyway, House of Wax is a super gross and scary show! I advice those who cannot watch horror movie or take too much blood not to watch it.

Let's Cherish Every Moment We're In Denial.

11:39 AM

she writes

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Gemini Woman

A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters.

She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature.

She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably.

She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman.

She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess.

She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow.

She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.

She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.

Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

2:27 PM

she writes

Went town with Jessica, Kenny and Tepang yesterday! Finally gotta go town-ning with Jessica again! I really miss those days where we went to town so often that it got so boring! Haha!

We didn't do much yesterday. Didn't catch a movie. Neither did any of us had anything in particular to look for. So we just roam around town aimlessly. As usual. We laughed, crapped, and made a fool of ourselves like always! But it was really really fun! I enjoyed myself very much! Although for most of the time, Kenny and Jessica were living in their own world. Haha! Kinda jealous! But what to do. She found someone else to love! She loves me no more! So sad right?! Haha! But I still feel super duper happy for her! *hugs* Oh yah! I must not forget to add that the way Kenny laugh is super funny! Haha!

As for today, was supposed to teach Tepang Chemistry. But we ended up slacking the whole afternoon and I only managed to teach him a little. Feel so guilty! "Sorry!"

There's So Much That I Thought I Have Forgotten.

1:55 PM

she writes

Friday, May 06, 2005

There's a lot I have in mind. But I just don't know how to put it down.

What's wrong with me?!

Whatever!

All I know now is.
I'm fat!
I needa go on a diet!

I Wanna Twinkle Like The Star

9:46 AM

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

Been a really really long time since I last dress up and went out! I feel like town-ning! Friday sounds good huh? Anyone?

I really really wanna club too! Haha! Another crazy idea! Can someone get me in?

Silence. Silence. Silence.

12:22 PM

she writes

Just reach home from training not long ago. Training was.. hmmm.. what should I say? Okay? Still not very use to things around. Especially the people. Bwah! Shouldn't go into details. Don't feel like talking behind people's backs tonight. Haha! What the!

I suddenly got the crazy idea to become an air stewardess in the future. Travel around the world for free! And the best part is, you still get paid! Not bad huh?

Feel so moody outta a sudden.
I don't know why.

Overwhelmed By Silence. I Can No Longer Speak.

11:36 AM

she writes

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Everything from that sms last night keeps flashing back in my mind.

Do I always have to be so affected by the things you say and you do?
Why can't I just be a little stronger?

Wo hao xiang you shou shang le.
Xin hao tong hao tong.

Who's Gonna Take Your Place. There Ain't Nobody Better.

3:28 AM

she writes

Monday, May 02, 2005

Yesterday was a great day!

Went Warren with Jessica and Suxian in the afternoon. We went swimming cause Jessica say she wanted to tan. Then we went over to the jacuzzi to buy off some fats. Haha! Suxian and me even tried to create a whirlpool in the jacuzzi! Then we went back to swim for a while before heading to the steam room to get ourselves steamed! Hopefully I managed to steam some fats outta me. Haha!

We had BBQ in the evening over at Northvale. It was a belated birthday celebration for Liling as well as a gathering. And everyone turned up! Liling, Jolyn, Jessica, Shih Wen, Wan Mei, Suxian, Me, Desmond, Kok Ann, Tepang, Kenny and Kenton (hope I got his name correct). I totally enjoyed myself! We ate, laughed, crapped, caught up with one another, and took loads and loads of photos!

After the cleaning up, we went up to Suxian's place and to watch White Chicks. The show was super duper funny! Everyone was laughing so hard despite being all tired and stuff! Haha! But too bad I didn't manage to finish watching cause I had to leave early. Shall go rent the vcd some day.

I must really thank God for yesterday. Thank him for blessing me a chance to get together with all my friends again. Thank him for blessing us with such good weather. And most importantly, thank him for blessing me with such great friends.

"I'm really happy to be able to see all of you again! To have fun, laugh and crap just like the good old days! Although we're all heading in different directions now, and I'm gonna miss u guys so so much. But hopefully we'll be able to have gatherings like that often to catch up with each other's life.

Jessica: You are seriously thinking too much my dear girl. Let nature take its course. Give yourself and give him a chance alright. I'm just a call or a sms away. So promise me you'll tell me if there's anything okay? *hugs*

Xiao Xian: You can always talk to me if there's anything wrong. We're studying in the same school! Make use of me! Haha! Cheer up okay? Cause everyone love to see you smile! *hugs*

Wan Mei: It really hurts to see you cry. So don't cry anymore okay? You still have all of us! We can be your pillar of support and strength! Call me when you need someone to talk to alright? And you can always ask me out to study during the weekend. *hugs*

Liling: Although you really changed a lot in appearance. Getting prettier and prettier each day. But inside you're still the same old Liling I use to know. Still as bubbly as ever. Still our source of laughter and joy. I love you so much! *hugs*

Shih Wen: You're getting prettier and prettier! So jealous! I bet all the guys at JJ are like falling head over heels for you! Take care my girl! *hugs*

Jolyn: Haven't be out with you for a long long time! So glad you came last night! You're getting so thin! Please eat more okay? Hope everything goes well for both your courses! Take good care of yourself okay? *hugs*

Nothing feels better than having a bunch of friends like you all. Thanks for all your friendship!"

Tepang stayed over last night! We took loads of photos! Haha!

"It feels good when the first person I see when I open my eyes is you."

I'll Be So Alone Without You. Maybe You'll Be Lonesome Too.

2:05 PM

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