Monday, May 31, 2004
Didn't blogged for many days.. Kinda lazy to type.. =X HahaX..Went Giant with Jessica today to get the chalet stuff.. So super heavy lorX.. The two of us carry until our fingers wanna break arhX.. But then I still kinda worried got not enough food to go around..
Tomorrow chalet lorX.. But don't know why I don't feel the excitement at all de lehX.. HahaX.. This is weird.. Maybe I'll only feel it on the day of my birthday..
HmmM.. Don't know what to write liaoX.. I'm blogged on what happen during the chalet when I come back kayX.. And I'll of course upload some wonderful pictures..
I still missing him somehow.. I can't seems to leave him out of my thoughts.. Why.. I really miss him..
You Say Everything That No One Says.. But I Feel Everything That You're Afraid To Feel.. I Will Always Want You.. I Will Always Love You.. I've Got A Crush..
2:21 PM
she writes
Friday, May 28, 2004
I've been missing this particular guy the entire day after I flipped thorugh my school diary and saw the stuff I wrote for him.. And since then.. He haven't once left my thoughts..We used to contact rather often.. But we've stopped contacting about a month.. And I realised it has been so long since I last talked to him or SMS him.. I really miss him.. I miss his voice.. His sweet messages.. His lame jokes.. His face.. And everything about him.. *SigH*
He's just like a the shadow of the moon reflected in the waters.. Seems so real.. But yet feels so imaginary.. Seems so warmth.. But yet feels so cold.. So beautiful.. But not mine..
Don't get the wrong idea.. I've never ever thought about making him mine.. But I just can't seems to help but miss him..
When can I see his cute face again..
When can I hear his voice again..
The Heaven Are Sparkling With Star Light Tonight.. Thst's What I see Through Your Eyes..
12:35 PM
she writes
Thursday, May 27, 2004
HaiX..How can things get be any worser (Is there such a word.. I don't know.. But you know what I mean ).. Now they're having ISP all the way until 3 in the afternoon on the 1st of June.. Great.. That definitely helps a lot.. Yea.. It indeed helps..
I'm still feeling super terrible and upset over the "everything-seems-to-clash-with-my-bithday" situation.. But there's nothing.. Absolutely nothing I can do to improve the situation..
And my friends.. They've been so sweet.. Jessica wrote me this letter this morning telling me to cheer up and apologising for not being able to be there to keep me company through my entire birthday.. So I really wanna tell her.. "Gal.. I'm not blaming you for anything.. But it just happened that every single thing just seems to fall on the 1st of June.. And you know me.. Being emotional and sensitive.. I'll get upset all over.. *SigH* I know you'll definitely stay if you could.. I know you really wish to be able to company me through my entire birthday if you could.. And furthermore.. You already made an effort to stay to the lastest on the 31st night.. So don't be silly kayX.. I know you care just as much as anyone who is staying on the 31st night.. And maybe even more.. And I wouldn't want you to go against your parents either what.. How can I be so selfish to put you in a difficult spot just to make myself happier.. I sincerely appreciate all your efforts and concern.. ThanX a lot! *Huggies* I love ya so so much! *MuackzZ* I feel so fortunate to have a sister and buddy like you!" And Suxian too.. She tags at my tagboard asking me to cheer up and stuff like that.. "Xian Xian.. ThanX a lot for staying over on the 31st night.. Even though you have to get up super early for ISP the next morning.. And thanX a lot for trying to cheer me up these few days.. Love ya.. *MuackzZ*"
With such great friends like them.. How can I not to try to gather back my excitement and enthusiasm.. But I still think is kinda hard.. But I promise to try kayX..
Still haven't list out how much of food to buy and stuff like that.. Die.. Like not enough time liaoX.. HahaX.. WIsh myself good luck.. Hope I don't miss out anything..
Now I Look In The Mirror.. Staring Back Is The Girl When I Used To Be When I'm With You..
2:05 AM
she writes
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Sweet and simple picture..
10:14 PM
she writes
I'm feeling extremely upset today.. And I haven't been feeling so upset in an awful long time..
Firstly.. He came to my house in the afternoon.. And guess what.. When I was standing near him.. He said something like "My shirt smell of perfume horX.. You know why.. Cause that night when I went clubbing I was wearing this shirt.." ..
What exactly is he tying to tell me when he said this.. That he was so close to a woman that his whole shirt smell of her perfume even after washing.. ='(
Secondly.. The chalet is getting so bad that I seriously just feel like cancelling it off.. If the $300 plus haven't been paid.. I'd have just call it off.. *SigH*
It's so bad that only like 10 people are staying over for the first night.. Have you seen a chalet more pathetic than mine..
And the people who promise me to turn up after whatever they have are now backing on their words.. Liars! *SobX sobX*
I hate all of you! I hate everything that is happening! I hate myself!
*SobX sobX*
Suddenly The Moment's Gone.. And All Your Dreams Are Upside Down.. You Just Want To Change The Way The World Goes Round..
11:33 AM
she writes
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Can somebody tell me what's the point of holding a chalet when everyone is eihter coming only on the second day or coming and leaving again..Stupid ISP! Will we lose out a lot if we don't have it for a day..
Stupid Youth Cup! Why can't they schedule it on some other days..
Stupid people! Stupid anti-social attitude! I hate them! Will it kill for you all to blend.. I'm not even expecting you all to blend.. Just be tolerant of each other presence.. Is that a lot to ask for..
I hate myself! Stupid me! Who ask me to come up with such a stupid idea in the first place.. Only create more trouble for myself..
I hate my birthday! Why must my stupid birthday falls on the 1st of June.. Why can't it be any other day that everyone is free..
ArgH~!
I hate everything! Everything that is happening!
Why must they so coincidentally happen on my birthday.. Can't they happen on any other day except the 1st of June..
Why..
Am I asking for a lot to have an enjoyable birthday that brings back wonderful memories..
Or is it because I haven't been good.. That's why God is punishing me..
Can someone tell me why all these is happening..
Please..
*SobX SobX*
I Filled My Dream With Hopes And Joys.. But It Burst With Disappointment.. Just Within A Second..
2:37 PM
she writes
Saturday, May 22, 2004
*SigH*I'm upset..
Gennie told me that she sent in the photo of another friend of mine to a few of the famous model companies in Singapore today.. And most just didn't reply and Elite called back to said that she wasn't suitable..
And why am I getting all upset over it when the person wasn't even me.. It's because.. She's much much more prettier than I am.. She also have nice legs and wonderful figure lorX.. And most importantly.. She's tall as well.. So in simple words.. She have the look.. The figure.. The height.. She have everything they are looking for in a model.. And yet.. They said she wasn't suitable.. Then what about me.. I got no looks.. No figure.. Just the height.. But I guess my height is like nothing to them cause they got this 14 year old model whoe is like 180 plus plus.. What am I compared to her.. *SigH* So in conclusion.. I have no qualities of a model at all.. HaiX..
Guess I just have to give up my stupid idea of being a model.. Don't wanna make a fool of myself in front of everyone.. And neither do I want to set my hopes so high and fall to my death.. *SigH*
I Stood There.. Blinded By Tears.. When You Turned Your Back.. And Walked Away..
1:40 PM
she writes
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Here I am.. To write a post for the happenings of yesterday and today.. Cause I was so lazy to blog yesterday..I got back my Geography paper yesterday.. I scored 31 over 40 for my paper 1.. But I fail my paper 2.. I only got 44 upon 100 marks.. How disappointing.. *SobX*
And I also got back my Physics paper today.. I got 23 over 40 for my paper 1.. And I failed my paper 2 terribly.. I only got 27 over 80.. But I got 24 upon 30 for my paper 3.. Which was the highest in my class.. (o^^o) But so what.. They only gave me a total of 50 marks over a 100.. *SigH* A mere pass again..
Oh yah.. I attended this Social Studies workshop these two days.. It was rather useful.. But very torturous as we are made to sit in the AVA for two and a half to three hours for each session.. But I'm glad it's over.. HahaX..
I'm feeling so upset.. I'm so fat.. And I can't seems to slim down.. To make things worse.. I seems to be getting fatter day by day instead.. *SobX* I need to slim down in the fastest possible way.. I really need to.. If not there goes my dream of trying out as a model at the end of this year.. With no looks.. I probably wouldn't be accepted only with my height.. I need the figure.. But I'm so fat! I really need to slim down.. But how.. I can always start dieting from tomorrow onwards.. But I seriously doubt my determination.. And I'm worried that my gastric will give me problems.. *SigH* But I guess.. There seems to be no other way out of this if I really hope to achieve my dream.. So for my dream.. I'll do it! I'll be determine in my dieting no matter what happens.. *Jia You* You can do it!
I Always Knew That I'd Look Back At My Tears And Laugh.. But I've Never Thought That I'd Look Back At My Laughter And Cry..
10:30 PM
she writes
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
I got back my Literature paper today.. As I meantioned yesterday.. I scored 9 out of 25 for my unseen poetry part.. And 17 over 25 for my text based question.. Which gives me a total of 26 over 50 for the entire Literature paper.. And a 50 over 100 for my Combined Humanities.. I just passed.. Am I supposed to be feeling proud or lucky about it.. Cause I'm can't seems to feel anything else except disappointment.. *SigH* How bad can this mid-year get..Oh yah.. I've another bad news.. We will most probably be having Intensive Study Programme on the 1st of June.. In another words.. No one is gonna turn up on the 31st night of my chalet.. *SobX* Then what's the whole point of holding the chalet.. I don't wanna go for the chalet anymore.. I no longer look forward for my birthday anymore.. *SobX* You can say that I'm childish.. Fancy getting upset over something so small like that.. But all the while.. I've been wishing to make this year's birhtday a special one for myself.. I've been hoping to celebrate the very first moment of my birthday with everyone.. But now.. *SobX sobX* ( _ _")
You Come To Love Not By Finding The Perfect Person.. But Seeing The Imperfect Person Perfectly..
10:58 AM
she writes
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Got back my Social Studies paper today.. And I failed.. By 1 pathetic mark.. *SobX* I got 24 over 25.. *Sad* If only I had the time to do the 2 source based questions.. Then I probably would have passed liaoX lorX.. *SigH* Guess I can say bye bye to my Combined Humanities liaoX lahX.. Cause I failed the unseen part for my Literature also.. I got like 9 out of 25 marks.. *SigH* Have to like score 16 out of 25 marks to pass the whole paper lorX.. But unless I manage to pass Literature by 2 to 3 marks.. My Combined Humanities would be gone lorX.. *SigH* This is bad.. Very bad indeed..Oh yah.. Anyway.. Me.. Heng Pei.. Suxian.. Doreen and Shi Han went Jurong Point today.. And we all got a piercing.. Except for Heng Pei lahX.. Cause we couldn't find any where else for her to pierce liaoX.. And we actually managed to persuade Doreen to do her first piercing.. ('-^) So cool! HahaX.. She looks more feminine with earrings..HeeX.. And Suxian pierced the top part of the ear and her whole ear turned red instantly.. HahaX.. As for me and Shi Han.. We pierced.. HmmM.. The tiny piece of flesh or bone.. I'm not sure.. In the middle part of the ear there.. Haiyoh.. Don't know what is that called lahX.. Don't really know how to describe also.. HahaX.. But it's kinda painful at the very moment when she pierced.. But after that it was rather okay.. But as you all know.. I'm so super clumsy.. I keep knocking against it accidentally.. *OucH* But the pain is still okay with me.. Kinda used to it after doing so many piercing.. Just as long as I wouldn't get caught tomorrow or let my mum discovers it.. If not.. It'll be the end of me.. HahaX..
Anyway.. He was so sweet.. He gave me this big big card and this box of Royce chocolate as presents for knowing me for half a year.. Which is tomorrow.. So sweet! HahaX.. Feel so guilty.. He'll always get me something without fail every month.. But seems that I haven't got anything for him before.. *OppS*
Don't Wanna Love You If You Don't Love Me.. Don't Wanna Need Me When You Don't Need Me Too..
12:03 PM
she writes
Sunday, May 16, 2004
I watched Troy! Supposingly today.. But since it's already after 12.. So it's yesterday..Didn't have the plan to watch this movie at first.. But cause the silly pig wanted to watch either Troy or Van Helsing what.. Then I promised Jess to watch Van Helsing with her.. So left with no choice but to watch Troy.. But I definitely didn't regret watching.. It was a really great show.. But a long one as well.. And it's kinda sad too.. Cause I cried.. So paiseh! I cried on our first "date" and I didn't bring tissue.. He actually have to offer me his tissue.. How embarrassing.. HahaX..
HmmM.. But after watching the movie.. I definitely have a deeper sight of things..
Love.. Though a simple 4 letters word.. But yet powerful.. It can easily make a change in our life.. In us.. In our behaviors.. And our actions.. And true love definitely does exist.. But it all depends if we have the chance to experience it..
Fame.. How many people in this world yearn for fame.. For their name to be known to everyone..
Greed.. It's the main culprit for people to act against their principal.. And also one of the most powerful "motivaiton" that makes people go all their way out to achieve..
Sacrificial.. For the people we truely love.. We can actually make all the sacrifices that we never imagine we will..
Amazing huh.. HahaX.. Just a movie and yet I felt so much.. Maybe that's why I describe myself as emotional and sensitive.. HahaX..
Anyway.. It was really nice to be able to hang out with the silly pig.. HahaX..He was really sweet today.. He offered to bring me a sweater.. And he didn't want to eat because I wasn't eating.. And he also offered to send me home.. HahaX.. So nice horX.. But we didn't really click today.. Probably due to lack of understanding.. Familiarity and no common topics.. But I guess we'll do better the next time.. HahaX..
Oh yah.. Things between the 2 of us haven been as usual.. Seriously.. I'm been thinking.. Why bother to be together when we're not even acting as if we are attached.. I get to go out with who ever I wants and he doesn't seems to care.. Although that's what I want and what I asked for.. But I feel weird whenever I go out with another guy and he doesn't even call or message at the end of the day to see if I'm home.. *SigH* And whenever he's with his friends.. I probably don't even cross his mind for a second.. He doesn't even bother to tell me where he is and who is he with lorX.. We can even like call each other once a day and talk for less then 5 minutes and that's it.. What's the point of being together if we both just couldn't seems to be bothered with each other.. It's all just a name.. And I feel like a labelled product that makes everyone know that I'm owned.. HaiX..
No One Have Ever Touched The Deepest Part Of My Heart.. But I'm Sure.. Someday.. You Will..
4:16 PM
she writes
Saturday, May 15, 2004
I got back most of my papers.. And they suck.. *SigH*Although it's already expected that I wouldn't do well for this mid-year.. But at least I expect my grades to maintain.. And not slip like that lorX.. But.. HaiX..
I failed my English Paper 2.. I only got a single digit mark for my comprehension.. Upon 25 marks.. Excluding the summary lahX.. And that stupid broccoli actually said she was very lenient when she marked our comprehension.. What is she trying to tell me.. That I suck in my comprehension.. Pissed* So.. I end up getting a C5 for English.. C5.. What a grade to score for English.. I wasn't suppose to score a C for English lorX.. At least a B lorX.. But look.. C5.. And it's a low C5 lorX.. *SigH*
I also got C5 for Chemistry.. And to say that Chemistry was suppose to be one of my best subject lorX.. I failed my paper 1 lorX.. 17 over 40.. It was all MCQ.. And I could actually fail.. What was I doing.. *SigH*
Oh yah.. And I got a low B4 for Chinese.. Although it's a B.. But I was expecting at least B3 lorX.. If only I didn't make stupid careless mistakes that cost me 5 marks and "spelling" errors in my composition that caused me to be deducted of 7 marks.. I could have gota high B3 lorX.. Almost touching A2.. So big a difference.. *SigH*
And guess what.. I flunk my A maths paper.. 47 marks.. SigH* So close.. I could have passed if I didn't make careless mistakes lorX..
And to make things worse.. I only get a low B4 for my E maths.. People who consoled me said "It's okayX.. At least you passed..".. But I didn't want just a pass! I want an A1! It was the only paper that I had high hopes in for this mid-year lorX.. It was the only paper that I was expecting an A from.. I was expecting to get 35 over 50 for my paper 1 and 45 over 50 for paper 2.. Which gives me a 80 over 100.. But look at what I got.. Not even a B3.. But a B4.. *SobX* If I had been more careful and not make 7 and a half marks worth of careless mistakes.. I would have passed my paper 1 lorX.. And if some stupid idiot didn't take 3 marks from a 4 marks question for a correct answer.. Just because it was not drawn in dotted lines.. I could have gotten an A2.. Come on lorX.. So what if the marks was standardized across the whole level that everyone who gave answers that wasn't drawn with dotted lines was only awarded 1 mark.. But the problem is.. We gave a correct answer.. Which should at least be awarded 3 out of 4 marks instead of 1.. *Pissed*
As for the rest of the subjects.. Which is Geography.. Combined Humanities and Physics.. I haven't got back my scripts.. But I'm definitely not expecting any good grades from there.. So.. I can already conclude that my mid-year is gone.. Totally gone.. And the worse things is that.. My highest grade is actually a B4.. *Weak Smile* What a joke..
HaiX.. I guess I must really work super duper hard for my prelims liaoX lorX.. Cuase I'm gonna and must achieve an A1 for my Chemistry.. Geography and E maths.. A2 for Chinese and Combined Humanities.. And B3 for my A maths.. Physics and English.. Giving me 10 marks for my L1R5.. Which is already quite a lousy score.. So.. If I don't get these results for my prelims.. I'll be letting myself down.. So I must really work hard for these 3 months before prelims.. *Jia you* I definitely can do it!
I Always Thought I Could Live Without You.. But Everytime I See You.. I Know I've Been Lying To Myself..
12:30 PM
she writes
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
My exams have officially ended today! So happy! (o^^o)But today's Chemistry practical was so bad..Cause I made a fool of myself in the lab.. So paiseh!
First.. I couldn't light the bunsen burner.. Only to realise that I turn on the wrong gas switch.. So Blur! Then.. I spilled my whole bottle of reagent R.. And to make things worse.. I drop my test-tubes 3 times so loudly.. Almost breaking it.. And everyone in the lab turned and look at me.. So clumsy! Can't stand myself.. HahaX..
Oh yah.. I trimmed my hair! There isn't much of a difference when I let it down.. But my pony-tail is like so super thin when I let it down lorX.. HahaX.. But not bad.. I like! HahaX..
Got to know a lot after reading his blog.. SigH* But what am I suppose to do.. I got myself to forgive and forget about the whole thing liaoX.. But I just can't seems to treat him the way I used to.. I really don't know why.. *SigH* Maybe I need some time lorX.. Or maybe.. Things between us will never be the way that it used to be.. HaiX..
Anyway.. That silly pig is treating me just like the same way he treats me.. He messages me everyday the first thing he wakes up in the morning all the way till he goes to bed at night.. And he actually called in the morning to wake me up yesterday when I didn't told him what time I was supposed to wake.. But the problem is.. I haven't even know him for more than 4 days.. And he's already being so sweet and nice to me.. Just like him.. *SigH* But probably that's how all the guys treat gals I suppose.. Oh yah.. And he asked me out for a movie.. Don't know if I should go.. Cuase afterall.. I really don't know him very well.. But I feel so bad turning him down.. HaiX.. What do I do..
I've Been Wanting So Badly To Tell You.. I Miss You.. But The Words Kept Choking Inside Me.. Cause I'm Not Sure If I Really Meant it..
11:49 AM
she writes
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Oh.. Anyway.. Forgot to mention.. I got to know a new guy today.. HahaX.. Should leave out the detail of how we met.. Cause he really scared the hell of me.. HahaX.. But he told we've actually met a few times for these past 2 years.. Just that I didn't notice only.. He's really really cute you know.. As in not his looks lahX.. His personalities.. But he looks quite cute also lahX.. He's really nice.. Very sweet person.. And he's super silly too.. HahaX.. Silly boy! Silly pig!There You'll Find Me.. Under The Stars Filled Sky.. Sitting All Alone..
5:27 PM
she writes
Have been very lazy to write my posts these few days.. Don't know why also.. *Guilty* HmmM.. So I guess I should just sum up about my happenings these few days before I write about today lorX
OkayX.. One very important thing I should say.. I finished my mid-year! *YeaH* (o^^o) Not including the 2 science practical that I'm gonna take on Monday and Tuesday.. After that.. I'll have one entire week to enjoy myself before I start to prepare for my prelims.. Must really make full use and enjoy myself to the maximum this week.. Cause I must really really study very hard for my prelims.. So I doubt I'll have much of a time after that to play anymore..
Nothing much to say about yesterday.. Cause I stayed home the whole day yesterday.. Can you believe.. I actually stayed home the whole day yesterday when it was the last day of exams.. Freak~!
But quite a few things happened on Thursday.. Firstly.. I saw my Dunern cute guy in the bus.. It was the first time that week I managed to meet him.. But that's not the main point.. The main point is.. I got to sit with him! Side by side! (o^^o) My heart nearly jumped out then.. So nervous.. *BlusH* So paiseh also.. Dont know why also.. So I sat a distance away from him.. But something bad about sitting beside him.. I can't look at him.. Cause it'll be so super obvious if I was to turn my head to look at him right.. So I kept looking down on the floor the whole time.. Trying very hard to calm my racing heart.. But it was like once in a life time chance to get to sit with him.. HahaX.. So happy! But he seems to be not feeling very well.. Cause He was coughing.. And he had a flu too.. HaiyoH.. Hope he'll get well soon.. HeeX
Another great happening on Thursday.. I saw another cute guy on the bus.. He's from Jurong Secondary..So now.. His officially my Jurong cute guy! HahaX.. And guess what.. I know his name.. But for some reason.. It's better of me to not mention it here.. I'm half related to him too.. At least I though so.. =X HahaX.. Let me describe a bit about him.. He's really cute! Really shuai also! (o^^o) I nearly drool when I saw him that day.. *BlusH* HahaX.. Kinda exaggerating.. But he really very shuai and cute lorX.. HahaX.. He's about 1.7 plus.. And he have a very nicely styled hair.. And and.. He's full face and three-quarter face look like Christopher Lee lehX.. So you can imagine how cute and shuai he is le ba.. HahaX.. But don't think I'll have the chance to see him again liaoX lahX.. But never mind.. The image of him is deeply printed in my memory.. Cause he's too shuai and cute to be forgotten.. HahaX..
As for today lehX.. One word to describe.. *SigH* Today.. I finally realise.. There's no such things as true love in this world.. HmmM.. Maybe not for me lorX.. Everytime when I put my heart and soul into believing a guy.. I'll just end up feeling like a fool.. But despite the hurt in me.. I still choose to believe in him.. Because he was so real for me to not believe.. But today.. I realise.. to him.. I'm probably nothing more than any other girl to him.. *SobX* And I was actually stupid enough to believe that I meant the world to him.. LoL.. How naive and silly can I get.. I probably just meant nothing more than a normal friend to him.. Yah.. HaiX.. So now.. After getting cheated again and again.. I seriously need to learn never to believe in another guy again.. Never.. Cause all I'll get is probably just nothing more than another cut.. Deeply in me heart.. *SobX SobX*
You Made Me Believe In You.. And Gave Me The Chance To Realise How Silly And Naive I Am Again..
2:57 PM
she writes
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
*YeaH* I'm only 3 papers (excluding CME) to go before it's the end of all the written papers.. Can't seems to ease the excitement in me.. (o^^o)The E maths paper 2 was kinda easy.. There were only 4 questions.. One question of vector.. One on locus.. One on geometry and one on statistics.. Only left a part of the vector question blank.. Which caused 3 marks.. And completed all the rest.. But whether the answers are right.. I'm really not very sure.. But it was already a miracle that I could finish the paper in time.. HeeX..
The Physics paper 1 was also manageable lorX.. Cause multiple choice only mahX.. Not sure of the answer then just guess lorX.. But there were 2 or 3 questions that I couldn't do and couldn't decide on the answers as well.. So I used the stupid throwing of eraser method that some idiot taught me.. *OppS* HahaX.. And I think I created quite a din.. Cause I threw the eraser several time and it landed on the table very loudly.. HahaX..
I'm feeling so so so much better today.. Talked a lot lot lot more than the past 2 days.. HahaX.. Maybe it's because friday is approaching.. ('-^) But now.. There seems to be another problem with me.. I can't seems to concentrate on studying anymore.. Cause I can't seems to help but think that it's only 3 more days to friday.. HahaX..
I'm only having Chemistry paper 2 tomorrow.. So.. I'll be dismissed super early tomorrow.. At 9.30.. So lucky.. *GrinZ* HahaX.. Then I can quickly come home.. Take a rest.. And study hard for my Geography.. Provided I can control the excitement in me and concentrate on studying..
Got to continue to study my Chemistry liaoX.. If not tonight no need to sleep lorX..
*Jia You* I just have to hang on for 3 more days.. Just 3 more days.. HahaX.. And I'll be free like a bird for a week before I start my preparations for my prelims..
If Your Love For Me Will Shine Like The Stars.. I Promise To Be The Moon Which Will Always Stay By You..
8:45 AM
she writes
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
*YeaH* Another 2 steps closer to the end of this mid-year.. (o^^o) Finished 2 papers today.. E maths paper 1 and Literature paper..Didn't have enough time to complete the E maths paper.. But I guess won't fail lahX.. Probably just won't do well.. *SigH* But it all have to depends on the paper 2 tomorrow.. Hope I'll do well.. As for Literature lehX.. Not very sure.. No confidence to assure myself that I wouldn't fail.. Cause I totally wrote crap for the poem question.. *Opps*
As I said.. I'm gonna take my E maths paper 2 tomorrow.. As well as my Physics paper 1.. *SigH* Don't know if I should really study for Physics.. Or should I just try my luck tomorrow.. Kinda lost hope in the subject after taking my paper 2.. But like my friend said.. If I'm to do well for the paper 1 and the practical.. There's still a hope to pass.. But then if I'm to study for Physics.. There'll be so much things that I need to study today.. Chemistry.. E maths.. And Physics.. *PheW* How tiring can my day get.. *SigH* But there seems to be no way I can escape all these.. Guess all I can do is continue to hang on until the end of this mid-year.. *Jia You* You can do it! ('-^)
My mood improved a little when I went to school today.. Talk a little bit more than yesterday.. But don't know why.. The moment I step into the house.. I became moody again.. Is my house cursed.. =X Nah~! Guess it's just that I've been staying at home to study this few weeks.. So everytime I step into the house.. I feel stressed.. Cause it reminds me of nothing but studying.. HahaX.. That's the most possibly reason I can think of for my mood swing.. But.. Thinking of that.. Do people isolate themselves from others when they feel stressed.. If not why do I want to be left all alone.. Why am I isolating myself from others.. And talking to the minimum.. Am I sick.. HahaX.. I think so.. But guess I'll definitely recover by Friday.. *GrinZ* Cause Friday is the end of all the written papers.. Leaving 2 practical to the end of this mid-year.. *YeaH* Can't help smiling at the thought of it.. HahaX..
Mirror Mirror Hanging On The Wall.. You Don't Have To Tell Me Whose The Biggest Fool Of All.. Mirror Mirror I Wish You Could Lie To Me.. And Bring My Baby Back To Me..
5:04 AM
she writes
Monday, May 03, 2004
Feel kinda weird and moody today..Don't know why.. But I just didn't feel like talking to anyone.. Just wanted to be all alone and isolated..
Must be one of the mood swing again.. And I got a feeling that it's gonna last a few days..
But I guess it's a good things also.. Can use these few days to totally concentrate on studying.. Not a bad idea huh.. ('-^) HahaX..
I Believe In Love.. And Like The Stars Above.. They Shine.. Let It Shine Over Me..
9:25 AM
she writes
Saturday, May 01, 2004
*SigH* The Physics paper today was totally horrible.. The marks of all the questions that I've attempted wasn't even enough to bring me to a pass.. Not to mention that 3/4 of the answers to those questions were crap.. Should have foreseen this situation earlier.. Should have spent my time studying my Geography instead.. Then I probably wouldn't be feeling so dead for the Geography paper as well.. Although it was only paper 1.. But there were quite a number of physical geography questions that I couldn't do.. *SobX*Not that it's something proud to mention about.. But I have to say.. Another 2 papers completed.. And gone.. Again.. Wonder when the day will come where I can include "Yeah~! I'm gonna pass today's papers with flying colours~!" in my post.. But I guess it seems kinda impossible to say something like that this mid-year.. ( _ _")
Another 7 papers and 2 science practical to go before this mid-year is officially over.. Really really hope I can do well for the rest of the 6 papers except Physics.. Totally lost hope in the subject liaoX.. And I guess it wouldn't make much of a difference how much I score for the paper 1 when I already did so badly for the paper 2.. So.. I got to start preparing for all the papers today.. Before I get all stressed up by all the last minute revision.. Good luck to myself.. *Jia You*
Oh yah.. Bought 2 pairs of coloured contacts today.. One grey.. One hazel.. (o^^o) But I haven't got a chance to try on them yet since I wouldn't be going out this few days.. So no point opening the package so fast.. But I really hope I wouldn't be looking weird in them.. HeeX..
HmmM.. Seems like things haven't been going very well for the people around me either.. They all seems to be facing problems and feeling kinda upset.. HaiX.. Really wish there was something I could do to make them all feel better.. But what.. All their problems seems to be way beyond my abilities to help.. Furthermore.. They are all problems that was not within anyone's control.. *SigH* Guess all I could do now is to be there for them and lend them a pair of listening ears when they need them.. But recently I've been so busy with my exams that I seems to be "neglecting" all of them.. Feel so bad.. *SobX* Really sorry.. Hope I'll be forgiven.. I'll try my best to make up for it after my exams kayX.. So sorry..
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